26 November 2004

woke up early this morning... again...

woke up from the pain in the back. -_-''' and from a dream which i can't classify whether it's a nightmare or a nice dream.... it's neither...

but when i woke up, my mood is like the weather out there....

*stormy clouds.... wif a slight cold breeze*

weijie once said that... your body gives u signals of your actions.... like... if u hurt ur ankle.... u're running away from your problems... so... wad abt your back? hahaz... cos... my back is causing my ankle to hurt already...

now even salonpas wun save me... :'(

now that the a levels are here... somehow... i feel... lost and blank... not that i miss a levels... i hate them totally.... it's juz.... the things that come after As.... makes me feel totally siandeds...

so many things pending to be solved... and for things to come to an end...

i'm... afraid...

hahaz... baka... -_-'''

chatted a bit wif pansy yesterday.... came to the conclusion that i ought to spend more time wif my family... i dunno y... when i described my problems to her... they sound so.... 不起眼... maybe it's only me bah... maybe it's cos it's something which happened quite some time ago le.. but to me... it still hurt loads... n... the two of us both agreed it's not something which can be solved juz liddat... it takes time...

how much time would it take?

hahaz.. y am i so impatient? dotz~

besides that... i can sense that... loads of pple are going to suffer from the post-a levels syndrome... n somehow... i hope i can be there for them...

dotz... it sounded furnies... -_-'''

i realised that.. i really dunno how to communicate... at the end of 14 years of education....

sad case siaz...

at the end of my two years in hc... i realised that... i've never adapted to life in hc... wad do we get after working so hard on books for 14 years? juz a few pieces of paper and an empty soul...

then wad's the point of being educated... -_-'''

opps.. getting a bit incoherent le... muz be the post exams syndrome... hahahaz...

all of a sudden... i wanna prove to u and the world that... it's possible to have friendships that last foreva...

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