i pray... for you to have good health... for you to be blessed... and most importantly... for you to be happy.

是否有过这种感觉。。。明明心里有很多很多话想说。。。但不知为什么。。。一句话也说不出口？

这并没什么大不了。。。只是。。。心里觉得。。。闷闷的。。。

好像一个装上盖子的瓶子一样。。。装的东西越来越多。。。好像随时会爆炸。。。

没有什么途径发泄。。。只能继续保持沉默。。。













曾经差点败给自己的忧郁。。。所以。。。对自己发誓不会让自己继续往这条路走下去。。。

这种感觉好奇怪啊。。。













自己相当明白。。。一些事情想太多未必对自己好。。。或许做人单纯一点会比较好。。。对一个人的一举一动不必想的那么深入。。。这样，也可以免了不必要的痛苦。。。













我始终相信。。。不管事情会变得多糟。。。不论多坏。。。事情总会转好。。。有它好的一面。。。













我对天上的星星许了个愿。。。请它们守护着我身边的人。。。

希望愿望能实现。。。

star wars date. XD

pushed back tuition todae to go on a date with... ahems... my sis... a movie date to be exact... cos... TODAE'S THE OPENING OF STAR WARS EPISODE 3!!!! of course as a die hard star wars fan... muz go watch lar.. :P

not forgetting how big a lightbulb i was when... ahems.... my sis was supposed to watch it with... ahems.. john. lalalala~

aniwae... the three of us juz sat in the theatre... making loads of furnie comments throughout the movie *omg. i can't believe i'm so bitchy... =S*

the movie's great... though an extremely dark one...

padme's costumes were great... i totally love the designer... XD especially this blue gown with beads... aww~ so so cool!!! XD

and the themes discussed in the movie... brings loads of thoughts to my mind...













the more we are afraid of losing the things we gained... the more they'll slip away from our finger tips...

attatchment leads to jealousy... jealousy leads to hate...

padme : "i don't like it... u're walking down a path which i can't follow you..."

and.... while anakin was trying so hard to keep the very person he loved to himself... to prevent a certain end from becoming reality... he himself caused the reality to happen...














we are all afraid of the uncertainties... we don't want to lose the things we gained... and because of this we have become so obsessed with our pursuit of power and the things we want... until we forgot our original aims...

and in the end.. that's how u lose the things u didn't want to lose... in exchange for the things u gained...

principle of equivalent trade, har? =Pp













mace windu is so so so cool!!!! i simply lurve his purple lightsaber... and in his showdown with the sith lord... his other 3 companions are juz there to be slaughtered... lolz! and he alone battled with the sith lord and won the battle... before someone else came along... =S oh man... he's so zai... =X how i wished he had been one of the remaining jedi who lived... besides yoda and obi-wan.. =S













and of course... yoda is so so so so so so cool!!!!!!!! XD he may be a "little green thing" but he's got power, man... =) jump here jump there like a monkey... =P and it's so hard to imagine that he's actually 700+ years old... lolz~ it made his opponents look so stupid... :P being unable to defeat him... lolz!













and... even in the end... when anakin had already turned to the dark side... and padme was dying... she still believed that... "there's a good side to him..." for all those things he did to her... for all the hurt he brought her...

sometimes i juz feel... padme... u're... so stupid...

but i guess the power of love blinds them all... juz like how anakin's love for padme blinded himself and lured himself to the dark side...













furnie stuff abt the movie... apparently the empire started building the first death star ever since luke and leia skywalker were born... but the strange thing is... it's only completed when the kids were at least 18 years old... but the second death star only took less than... abt 5 years to build? -_- lame diaoz... *input by john: maybe they got the idea how to build le, so second death star take lesser time*

and other stupid things like... how come when padme died... after giving birth... her stomach still so big? *as contributed by me and my sis* later we sorta come to the conclusion that woman's stomach dun go back to their original size so quickly after childbirth...













i guess... for now... lemme drown in star wars philosophy and... mourn for the death of anakin skywalker... and hate george lucas for making episodes 4-6 before episode 1-3... =S and pray that maybe there'll be episode 0 or episode 7+++... oh well... *starts sounding desperate*

we had no choice...

"It was the only thing we could do. It was the only choice we had. I gave in, I accepted, I believed. I allowed it to be true. I thought I'd be able to go through with it without ever doubting myself. But I... It hurts so much...

Everyone was so happy. "Great job, Yuna. You did it. You saved us all." There were too many smiles to count. And I know that I was smiling, too. But now...when I look back... The people who should be here aren't. The ones who should be smiling with me aren't here...

"We had no choice." Always "we had no choice." Those are our magic words. We repeat them to ourselves again and again. But you know... The magic never worked! The only thing we're left with is regret...

No. I don't want this anymore.

I don't want friends to die...or fade away. I don't want battles where we have to lose in order to win..."

~ Yuna (Final Fantasy x-2)

有些时候，一旦一个人保持沉默，把心收藏起来，别人开始摸不到他的心，开始不了解他的一举一动。。。

有些人就是喜欢保持沉默。。。

也因此，周围的人对他的误会也越来越多。。。











有些事情。。。是没有理由的。。。

我们活在科技发达的时代，把科学对任何事物都有答案的原理搬到生活里。。。认为什么都有答案，所以人人都不断的追求人生的答案。。。

我们往往忘了。。。有些事是没有答案的。。。

但固执的人类却硬钻牛角尖。。。结果苦了自己，还苦了别人。。。







"Sometimes things are not that complicated as u make them out to be... Put whatever u are thinking now away for e time being and come back to them later, maybe u will get a diff perspective..."










或许。。。有些事情就是那么简单。。。

就譬如。。。如果有一天我不小心，手上划了一道深深的伤口。。。事情的结果也只有两种。。。第一。。。就是让伤口休息，不再刺激它。。。过了不久，伤口就会自动痊愈。。。

或者。。。另一种，就是伤口一直经历风吹雨淋，完全没有机会愈合，一直不断地受到伤害。。。最终。。。受伤的地方迟早会长出一块厚厚的茧。。。

事情也就是那么简单。。。













别轻易对他人誓下诺言。。。因为。。。如果无法遵守诺言。。。这对别人的伤害是那么大。。。

但是。。。当一个人在等待你许下诺言。。。你却因为对自己能实现诺言的能力感到怀疑而拒绝他人。。。这对他的伤害。。。是否会比许下诺言却无法遵守来的大？













做人真是痛苦。。。













对一个人客气。。。不一定是因为跟他不熟。。。有些时候。。。是因为害怕自己会把他人对自己的好当成是理所当然的。。。这是对自己的一种警惕。。。但在别人的眼里。。。这对他们而言又是怎样呢？













我只知道。。。这世界是多么黑暗。。。而人类是多么可悲。。。

看不见的未来

面对着周围所发生的一切。。。

我。。。看不见未来。



看不见自己在不久的将来会快乐的生活。。。

看不见自己能在面对未来挑战顺利过关。。。



看不见以后的我会丰衣足食。。。

看不见以后的我会得到幸福。。。














可是。。。一个人真的能看得到未来吗？

如果一个人能够看到未来。。。那个人不就是神仙了吗？

就算现在幸福，丰衣足食。。。一年后。。。也未必能像现在一样。。。





因为。。。我们的世界一直在改变。。。

明天究竟会遇见什么，没人能预测。。。





看不到未来不代表没有未来。。。





试想想。。。如果每个人因为看不到未来而不再奋斗。。。

每个人都对生命毫无期待。。。

没有了欲望。。。没有往前走的冲劲。。。

这个世界将是多么悲哀。。。




未来是靠自己来创造的。。。这听起来有可能很俗气。。。但是。。。或许只有这种自信。。。我们才能往前走。。。不断进步。。。

这是不是一种人类编造出来的谎言来骗自己。。。我不知道。。。

我只知道。。。这总比停滞不前来的好。。。

人类就是那么可悲。。。情愿活在自己编造的谎言里。。。也不愿面对他们不想面对的事物。。。