someday u'll disappear from our lives.
and i realised how i still miss u.
just like how i disappeared from yours.
30 October 2005
WARNING : This seriously long post contains nothing else but ABSOLUTE crap. To those readers who were looking for some intelluctual discussion on some big life philosophy, i'm deeply sorry cos unfortunately, sotongs only have some black fluid in their head for squirting n vandalising places, instead of brains. cheerios~ XD
Today someone *whom i feel i shouldn't name in case anything happens to him/her... wahaha~ jokings~* asked me an extremely intruiging question that ties to the very fundemental existence of human beings -- are humans born as loners or as born as part of a pack... just like wolves...
so in this superbly boring entry, i shall try to answer this question. firstly, i would say... humans are born loners. just think about it... we come to the world as one and only one... we usually come out from a mother's womb alone. *yar yar... go ahead and argue how the surgeon could have carried a pair of twins out from the mother's womb at the same time cos she's having caesarean... it would be a surprise how the mother can survive after child birth... -_-'''*
however, the opposition would suggest that when we are born, we are usually born into a family, so we are actually part of a community as compared to loner. but let me stress... we're probably born into a family because at such a young age when babies only know how to cry and wait to be fed, they definitely have no means of fending for themselves. and that's when the so called "community" comes in... the community serves as help for these hapless beings... to help them fulfil their daily needs, covering up each other's weakness to produce the "optimal" outcome by combining each individual's talents. so in short, we are just there for each other to be used for our personal gain.
and this ties in with how all humans are selfish in nature. no matter how "selfless" u appear to others, can u deny that u actually gain from it? be it direct personal hidden materialistic n physical gains, or just making u slightly happier... u still gain from it. u do it because u want to feel happy helping others. u do it because by doing it ur relationship with others would be better off. directly or indirectly all humans are still fishmongers by nature.
in fact, in my opinion, being selfish is a loner behaviour to a certain extent.
and yes! of course, when ur all grown up, u can choose to revert to ur original instinct - to be loner, or to remain as part of a community. in this case, sad to say, most of us remain as part of the huge "family". no one would want to part with the benefits being in a group brings... since things are done collectively, there are always free riders who would try to put themselves better off... slacking around while the other hardworking ones slog their lives off.
and so, if u're a loner, it might actually be a symbol of power. because u no longer need to depend on others to live on. u are not like those weakling parasites. u can survive on ur own.
but then again, loners does not equate to being someone powerful. sometimes it's a form of insecurity. just like squall for example *hahaha fav example* look at him... he's a loner but the reason y is because he's afraid of losing the things he might gain from joining others in their big gang.
ok... so i am crapping abt the loners having power. -_-'''
but but but but but... when we post this question (whether pple are born loners or part of a "wolf pack") to some helpless romantics... unfortunately they don't choose option a -- humans are loners by instinct... neither is it option b -- humans are part of a "pack". their answer would be.... *drum rolls* option c!!!! humans are born into this world as two halves!!! and the purpose of ur life is to search for ur other half!!! wow!!! *applause plz.*
ahems. i would say... that the above is all bull shit. cos in my opinion... my answer would be option d -- otherwise... and in this case... "otherwise" means it depends on my mood. and it so happens that my mood recently belong to the loner category. meaning when my mood changes for the better i might reconsider changing my opinion and say that humans live in a community by instinct. *and of course if i'm crazily in love i'll say i'm searching for my other half. -_-'''*
and opps i almost spelt loners as losers. -_-'''
---end of crappy post---
here's the less crappy part of my post today... yesh! today i survived another day! muahahahaha~ *opens bottle of champagne to celebrate*
haiz all of a sudden i crave grape sparkling juice.... =X
my mum n my sis are absolutely crazy... the 王子变青蛙 show is extremely nice... i absolutely love dang ou!!! but but but but but they need not have to buy the vcd!!! and that stupid vcd *or superbly nice* is extremely ex!!! 20 episodes split into 3 boxes and each box is abt 30 bucks! omg which crazy soul with so much $$$ in their bank accounts would buy that?!!! ok... my mum. but she din buy the whole set. she only bought the last box. -_-''' now that's 无头有尾... -__-''' but it's really nice... dang ou is really a 白马王子... wahahahaha~ i guess it's every girl's wish to be treated like a princess and for their prince charming to protect them for the rest of their lives. but. that's just a show, pple. get back to reality.
and i guess i'm not the only slacker in my house... hehex... i've influenced my sister to start using the comp n play games. and guess wad? she's playing pokemon fire red. -_-'''
2 more days to maths paper!!! and 27 more days to end of exams! somehow... all these seem so far far away.... ... .. .
and... if u ask me to decide which is worse, to be unfaithful or irresponsible... i think that irresponsible ones are worse off. n ought to be shot dead. wahahahaha~
Today someone *whom i feel i shouldn't name in case anything happens to him/her... wahaha~ jokings~* asked me an extremely intruiging question that ties to the very fundemental existence of human beings -- are humans born as loners or as born as part of a pack... just like wolves...
so in this superbly boring entry, i shall try to answer this question. firstly, i would say... humans are born loners. just think about it... we come to the world as one and only one... we usually come out from a mother's womb alone. *yar yar... go ahead and argue how the surgeon could have carried a pair of twins out from the mother's womb at the same time cos she's having caesarean... it would be a surprise how the mother can survive after child birth... -_-'''*
however, the opposition would suggest that when we are born, we are usually born into a family, so we are actually part of a community as compared to loner. but let me stress... we're probably born into a family because at such a young age when babies only know how to cry and wait to be fed, they definitely have no means of fending for themselves. and that's when the so called "community" comes in... the community serves as help for these hapless beings... to help them fulfil their daily needs, covering up each other's weakness to produce the "optimal" outcome by combining each individual's talents. so in short, we are just there for each other to be used for our personal gain.
and this ties in with how all humans are selfish in nature. no matter how "selfless" u appear to others, can u deny that u actually gain from it? be it direct personal hidden materialistic n physical gains, or just making u slightly happier... u still gain from it. u do it because u want to feel happy helping others. u do it because by doing it ur relationship with others would be better off. directly or indirectly all humans are still fishmongers by nature.
in fact, in my opinion, being selfish is a loner behaviour to a certain extent.
and yes! of course, when ur all grown up, u can choose to revert to ur original instinct - to be loner, or to remain as part of a community. in this case, sad to say, most of us remain as part of the huge "family". no one would want to part with the benefits being in a group brings... since things are done collectively, there are always free riders who would try to put themselves better off... slacking around while the other hardworking ones slog their lives off.
and so, if u're a loner, it might actually be a symbol of power. because u no longer need to depend on others to live on. u are not like those weakling parasites. u can survive on ur own.
but then again, loners does not equate to being someone powerful. sometimes it's a form of insecurity. just like squall for example *hahaha fav example* look at him... he's a loner but the reason y is because he's afraid of losing the things he might gain from joining others in their big gang.
ok... so i am crapping abt the loners having power. -_-'''
but but but but but... when we post this question (whether pple are born loners or part of a "wolf pack") to some helpless romantics... unfortunately they don't choose option a -- humans are loners by instinct... neither is it option b -- humans are part of a "pack". their answer would be.... *drum rolls* option c!!!! humans are born into this world as two halves!!! and the purpose of ur life is to search for ur other half!!! wow!!! *applause plz.*
ahems. i would say... that the above is all bull shit. cos in my opinion... my answer would be option d -- otherwise... and in this case... "otherwise" means it depends on my mood. and it so happens that my mood recently belong to the loner category. meaning when my mood changes for the better i might reconsider changing my opinion and say that humans live in a community by instinct. *and of course if i'm crazily in love i'll say i'm searching for my other half. -_-'''*
and opps i almost spelt loners as losers. -_-'''
---end of crappy post---
here's the less crappy part of my post today... yesh! today i survived another day! muahahahaha~ *opens bottle of champagne to celebrate*
haiz all of a sudden i crave grape sparkling juice.... =X
my mum n my sis are absolutely crazy... the 王子变青蛙 show is extremely nice... i absolutely love dang ou!!! but but but but but they need not have to buy the vcd!!! and that stupid vcd *or superbly nice* is extremely ex!!! 20 episodes split into 3 boxes and each box is abt 30 bucks! omg which crazy soul with so much $$$ in their bank accounts would buy that?!!! ok... my mum. but she din buy the whole set. she only bought the last box. -_-''' now that's 无头有尾... -__-''' but it's really nice... dang ou is really a 白马王子... wahahahaha~ i guess it's every girl's wish to be treated like a princess and for their prince charming to protect them for the rest of their lives. but. that's just a show, pple. get back to reality.
and i guess i'm not the only slacker in my house... hehex... i've influenced my sister to start using the comp n play games. and guess wad? she's playing pokemon fire red. -_-'''
2 more days to maths paper!!! and 27 more days to end of exams! somehow... all these seem so far far away.... ... .. .
and... if u ask me to decide which is worse, to be unfaithful or irresponsible... i think that irresponsible ones are worse off. n ought to be shot dead. wahahahaha~
26 October 2005
in the end... we'll still go on our own ways.
i've had enough.
we don't need one another.
wad's wrong with me?
we're juz there to ease each other's loneliness.
i'm tireds.
and when new friends come, old friends fade.
juz let me go.
it's part n parcel of life.
juz like how the clouds part as the wind of time blows.
nothing's forever.
not love.
so y try to change the tides of fate?
don't bother.
i've had enough.
we don't need one another.
wad's wrong with me?
we're juz there to ease each other's loneliness.
i'm tireds.
and when new friends come, old friends fade.
juz let me go.
it's part n parcel of life.
juz like how the clouds part as the wind of time blows.
nothing's forever.
not love.
so y try to change the tides of fate?
don't bother.
25 October 2005
today's another boring n tiring day... i know it's like boring for pple to read how boring my life is n how it revolves around mugging n halfway forgetting that i've got exams in 8 days time n run off to play game/watch anime. *yesh i'm sorry that my boring life revolves only around these things. -_- anime's my life. slacking's my life. but sorry i hope mugging's not my life. -_-*
i guess u're right. i still feel for him.
oh yah speaking of this.. the long awaited fan subbed tsubasa episode 26 by dattebayo n live-evil is finally out! after pulling out hair in frustration wif my fellow anime freaks like edwin n talking abt it wif tutorial mates yong quan n nicholas *who had no idea wad i was talking abt when i told him some of the characters in there came from CCS... he was like... har? wad's card captor sakura? lolz~* yeap i finally had my late "weekly" dose of tsubasa wif syaoran n sakura n kurogane n fye~ sadeds that the first season ended rather quickly... meaning that i'll have to wait for another few more months before my next dose of tsubasa will come... yes.. the second season will be out sometime in april next year... so until den if i go crazy u know y. yesh i haven't had my dose of nerve calming medication.
but there's one thing u've got wrong about me.
besides this... loads of other "new" anime from fan subs... like shakugan no shana... juz watched episode 3 and i'm glad to say i'm not disappointed! =) somehow i don't understand y some other viewers feel that the series is starting to bore them... but to me shana still kicks ass n sakai is not some wimp... he juz has his own values that's all. hehex~ so to anime fans out there i still recommend to you guys shakugan no shana... =) quick go dl!!! lolz~
my heart has turned to stone juz like my mouth.
besides that... school rumble 24 by wannabe fansubs is also out! juz found out today and finished watching it... had a good laff after waiting for my school rumble dosage too.... hehex... but the wait is always worth it! XD harima as usual misunderstand tenma n vice versa and things take an unpredicted turn where harima all of a sudden finds himself a new girlfriend without his consent! wahahahaha~ i can juz die from laffing~
no point holding onto those feelings that holds no value anymore.
despite all the fun going-ons with my anime life... i muz admit... exams are driving me crazy... i'm tireds... *despite having quite alot of sleep i suppose... lolz* thurs material science test n up till now wadeva i studied... it's like... i know all the information but when u throw me to do all those questions i don't think i'll know how to do... but then, come to think of it... it's only another 40 mcq nia~ study so hard for wad? lol. but look at how close exams are to us... n i haven't even started studying for the other subjects yet.
since guys can survive without women,
somebody... help me!!!!
i don't see y the otherwise can't hold.
and to end off this post... wif new song by jay chou... his new album coming out on 1 nov... can't wait to get it wahahaha~
夜曲
by 周杰伦
一群嗜血的蚂蚁被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
失去你爱开始分明
失去你还有什么事好关心
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒捆着手我现在是奴隶
我用漂亮的押韵形容被掠夺一空的爱情
我应该藏这里夜色不干净
还给你整夜的回忆占满天的星
送你的白色玫瑰在纯黑的花季凋零
午夜在树枝上诡异的很安静
倾听我黑色的大衣像我的你
衣栉比鳞的鬼走过的走过的生命
啊四周弥漫雾气
啊我在空旷的墓地
老去后还爱你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我给的思念太小心
你埋葬的地方就有你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印
那些断翅的蜻蜓散落在这森林
而我的眼睛没有丝毫同情
失去你泪水混浊无情
失去你我连笑容都有阴影
我站在满心期待的屋顶
嘲笑我的伤心
像一口没有水的枯井
我用尽我的自信
要我后悔莫急等待爱情
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我给的思念太小心
你埋葬的地方就有你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印
一群嗜血的蚂蚁被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
失去你爱开始分明
失去你还有什么事好关心
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒捆着手我现在是奴隶
我用漂亮的押韵形容被掠夺一空的爱情
i guess u're right. i still feel for him.
oh yah speaking of this.. the long awaited fan subbed tsubasa episode 26 by dattebayo n live-evil is finally out! after pulling out hair in frustration wif my fellow anime freaks like edwin n talking abt it wif tutorial mates yong quan n nicholas *who had no idea wad i was talking abt when i told him some of the characters in there came from CCS... he was like... har? wad's card captor sakura? lolz~* yeap i finally had my late "weekly" dose of tsubasa wif syaoran n sakura n kurogane n fye~ sadeds that the first season ended rather quickly... meaning that i'll have to wait for another few more months before my next dose of tsubasa will come... yes.. the second season will be out sometime in april next year... so until den if i go crazy u know y. yesh i haven't had my dose of nerve calming medication.
but there's one thing u've got wrong about me.
besides this... loads of other "new" anime from fan subs... like shakugan no shana... juz watched episode 3 and i'm glad to say i'm not disappointed! =) somehow i don't understand y some other viewers feel that the series is starting to bore them... but to me shana still kicks ass n sakai is not some wimp... he juz has his own values that's all. hehex~ so to anime fans out there i still recommend to you guys shakugan no shana... =) quick go dl!!! lolz~
my heart has turned to stone juz like my mouth.
besides that... school rumble 24 by wannabe fansubs is also out! juz found out today and finished watching it... had a good laff after waiting for my school rumble dosage too.... hehex... but the wait is always worth it! XD harima as usual misunderstand tenma n vice versa and things take an unpredicted turn where harima all of a sudden finds himself a new girlfriend without his consent! wahahahaha~ i can juz die from laffing~
no point holding onto those feelings that holds no value anymore.
despite all the fun going-ons with my anime life... i muz admit... exams are driving me crazy... i'm tireds... *despite having quite alot of sleep i suppose... lolz* thurs material science test n up till now wadeva i studied... it's like... i know all the information but when u throw me to do all those questions i don't think i'll know how to do... but then, come to think of it... it's only another 40 mcq nia~ study so hard for wad? lol. but look at how close exams are to us... n i haven't even started studying for the other subjects yet.
since guys can survive without women,
somebody... help me!!!!
i don't see y the otherwise can't hold.
and to end off this post... wif new song by jay chou... his new album coming out on 1 nov... can't wait to get it wahahaha~
夜曲
by 周杰伦
一群嗜血的蚂蚁被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
失去你爱开始分明
失去你还有什么事好关心
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒捆着手我现在是奴隶
我用漂亮的押韵形容被掠夺一空的爱情
我应该藏这里夜色不干净
还给你整夜的回忆占满天的星
送你的白色玫瑰在纯黑的花季凋零
午夜在树枝上诡异的很安静
倾听我黑色的大衣像我的你
衣栉比鳞的鬼走过的走过的生命
啊四周弥漫雾气
啊我在空旷的墓地
老去后还爱你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我给的思念太小心
你埋葬的地方就有你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印
那些断翅的蜻蜓散落在这森林
而我的眼睛没有丝毫同情
失去你泪水混浊无情
失去你我连笑容都有阴影
我站在满心期待的屋顶
嘲笑我的伤心
像一口没有水的枯井
我用尽我的自信
要我后悔莫急等待爱情
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
跟夜风一样的声音
心碎的很好听
手在键盘敲钢琴
我给的思念太小心
你埋葬的地方就有你
为你弹奏肖邦的夜曲
纪念我死去的爱情
而我为你隐姓埋名
在月光下弹琴
对你心跳的感应
还是如此温热亲近
怀念你那鲜红的唇印
一群嗜血的蚂蚁被腐肉所吸引
我面无表情看孤独的风景
失去你爱开始分明
失去你还有什么事好关心
那鸽子不再象征和平
我终于被提醒捆着手我现在是奴隶
我用漂亮的押韵形容被掠夺一空的爱情
this is a really old song... juz listened to this song which i once paid no attention to... n realised this is quite an interesting song lolz... *probably today i had loads of fun wif my tutorial mates trying to solve those 欠扁问答题... lolz*
冰箱
by S.H.E.
把大象放进冰箱有几个步骤
把河马放进冰箱有几个步骤
把回忆放进冰箱会不会寂寞
把爱情放进冰箱也已经到了时候
让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤
让热情变成冷漠算不算罪过
让爱情退冰多久 才可以化为乌有
从今以后再没有人那样逗我
从今以后 就要分手
从今以后冰箱不必再放啤酒
从今以后 别在门口等我
从今以后再不需要别人哄我
从今以后 就算分手
从今以后日记再也不用上锁
从今以后 甚至不是朋友
苹果给你 柠檬给我
可乐给你 咖啡给我
自由给你 真心给我
你的给你 我的你不能带走
尽管带走吧。我不需要你。
冰箱
by S.H.E.
把大象放进冰箱有几个步骤
把河马放进冰箱有几个步骤
把回忆放进冰箱会不会寂寞
把爱情放进冰箱也已经到了时候
让眼泪一次流够要几个枕头
让明天不再难过要多少纸鹤
让热情变成冷漠算不算罪过
让爱情退冰多久 才可以化为乌有
从今以后再没有人那样逗我
从今以后 就要分手
从今以后冰箱不必再放啤酒
从今以后 别在门口等我
从今以后再不需要别人哄我
从今以后 就算分手
从今以后日记再也不用上锁
从今以后 甚至不是朋友
苹果给你 柠檬给我
可乐给你 咖啡给我
自由给你 真心给我
你的给你 我的你不能带走
尽管带走吧。我不需要你。
23 October 2005
22 October 2005
i guess... pple are all like that...
only remembering the things that are important to them, remembering those that interests them, while forgetting those "insignificant" in their eyes...
i guess it's juz human nature...
眼泪曾为一个人而流
只是那个人已不在
现在雨水代替眼泪
泪水也就不再流
但是最后才发现 原来他活在心中
不论走到哪里 不自觉地就会想起
一切关于你的事
再也不需要你 这不是欺骗自己
以前那些时光 就留作回忆
再也不需要你 我只要找回自己
美好的不好的 都成为过去
i'm watching this new anime called 灼眼のシャナ, translated to english called blazing-eye Shana (ok my translation sux wahahaha~) juz watched the first episode... quite an intruiging series for me... and juz one episode i'm hooked...
it talks about this guy, called yuuji sakai 坂井 悠二... who was just a normal guy leading a boring school life... was just walking down the streets one day after a normal school day when he notices a seal of some sort unrevealing itself on the ground beneath his feet, and time stopped suddenly and this huge monster appeared, sucking the existence out of all the people on the street, including one of yuuji's classmates, hanai yukari... only yuuji and the monster were the people moving then... and yuuji was shocked at the entire scene... the monster soon realised that unlike the others, yuuji could move and concluded he's a mistes, and is a unique one... and tried to eat yuuji up. at this moment, a girl with fire-red hair and eyes appeared, and saved yuuji in the nick of time... but before she manage to defeat the monster, yuuji was shocked at how she was going to kill n stood between the monster who had transformed into a woman, and the monster took advantage to stick her hand into yuuji's body to look for the hidden item in yuuji that makes him unique... the girl simply used her long sword n cut through yuuji n the monster...
yuuji thought he would be dead due to blood loss but surprisingly he wasn't bleeding at all... he screams at the girl to call an ambulance... but the girl calmly went up to him and simply put the cut half of his arm together with the rest of the body, and his whole body is back in place...
then the girl returned the whole street to normal by replacing the people who's existence had already been eaten by the monster with torches... everything started moving again... yuuji saw his classmate infront of him walk off with lifeless eyes, and she wouldn't answer him when he calls her... and no one on the street seemed to notice wad had happened... yuuji then chased after the girl with red hair, only to find that her hair is now black...
then the girl reveals to him that he wasn't even human, he was just an object, called a torch, that was put in place of an existence that had been eaten by such monsters they encountered just now... and these torches are there to absorb the impact due to the sudden disappearence of an existence... and so... the real sakai yuuji was dead... the person that had been cut was only a reminder of yuuji's existence and would soon disappear... and all those around him would not have noticed that he was even there before...
how i wish i'm dead just like he is.
this story really get me to start thinking about things in life... the concept of how u might not really be who u r now is really an intriguing one lolx... it makes me wanna know more... and watch more... and of course... the girl with blazing eyes totally rawks! XD she totally kicks butt... XD can't wait for the next episodes to come out... it's so irritating that the american companies have to liscense this anime series the moment it came out -_- siandeds... but so far it has juz started airing in japan a few weeks ago... and it's quite like bleach except i guess shana(the girl with red eyes n hair) is so much more hot! lolz.... but of course ichigo's the best... XD
woah... i had the thought of turning my blog into an anime blog... but looking at how i'm struggling with giving a summary of an anime episode *okies my summary skills sux* i think i can totally forget about it wahahaha~ and besides... i guess i don't have that much patience either... lolz... wow i took 1.5 hours to type this whole thing! *cos i was multitasking - eating dinner watching tv, rewatching 灼眼のシャナ episode 1 to write the summary* all in all... i shouldn't be spending time here when i only have 11 days left for exams!!! and i haven't started studying yet!!! jialats... no mood to study somemore... uninstalled dota but anime's driving me crazy and i'm not going to delete it in anyway... =(
somebody help me!!!
only remembering the things that are important to them, remembering those that interests them, while forgetting those "insignificant" in their eyes...
i guess it's juz human nature...
眼泪曾为一个人而流
只是那个人已不在
现在雨水代替眼泪
泪水也就不再流
但是最后才发现 原来他活在心中
不论走到哪里 不自觉地就会想起
一切关于你的事
再也不需要你 这不是欺骗自己
以前那些时光 就留作回忆
再也不需要你 我只要找回自己
美好的不好的 都成为过去
i'm watching this new anime called 灼眼のシャナ, translated to english called blazing-eye Shana (ok my translation sux wahahaha~) juz watched the first episode... quite an intruiging series for me... and juz one episode i'm hooked...
it talks about this guy, called yuuji sakai 坂井 悠二... who was just a normal guy leading a boring school life... was just walking down the streets one day after a normal school day when he notices a seal of some sort unrevealing itself on the ground beneath his feet, and time stopped suddenly and this huge monster appeared, sucking the existence out of all the people on the street, including one of yuuji's classmates, hanai yukari... only yuuji and the monster were the people moving then... and yuuji was shocked at the entire scene... the monster soon realised that unlike the others, yuuji could move and concluded he's a mistes, and is a unique one... and tried to eat yuuji up. at this moment, a girl with fire-red hair and eyes appeared, and saved yuuji in the nick of time... but before she manage to defeat the monster, yuuji was shocked at how she was going to kill n stood between the monster who had transformed into a woman, and the monster took advantage to stick her hand into yuuji's body to look for the hidden item in yuuji that makes him unique... the girl simply used her long sword n cut through yuuji n the monster...
yuuji thought he would be dead due to blood loss but surprisingly he wasn't bleeding at all... he screams at the girl to call an ambulance... but the girl calmly went up to him and simply put the cut half of his arm together with the rest of the body, and his whole body is back in place...
then the girl returned the whole street to normal by replacing the people who's existence had already been eaten by the monster with torches... everything started moving again... yuuji saw his classmate infront of him walk off with lifeless eyes, and she wouldn't answer him when he calls her... and no one on the street seemed to notice wad had happened... yuuji then chased after the girl with red hair, only to find that her hair is now black...
then the girl reveals to him that he wasn't even human, he was just an object, called a torch, that was put in place of an existence that had been eaten by such monsters they encountered just now... and these torches are there to absorb the impact due to the sudden disappearence of an existence... and so... the real sakai yuuji was dead... the person that had been cut was only a reminder of yuuji's existence and would soon disappear... and all those around him would not have noticed that he was even there before...
how i wish i'm dead just like he is.
this story really get me to start thinking about things in life... the concept of how u might not really be who u r now is really an intriguing one lolx... it makes me wanna know more... and watch more... and of course... the girl with blazing eyes totally rawks! XD she totally kicks butt... XD can't wait for the next episodes to come out... it's so irritating that the american companies have to liscense this anime series the moment it came out -_- siandeds... but so far it has juz started airing in japan a few weeks ago... and it's quite like bleach except i guess shana(the girl with red eyes n hair) is so much more hot! lolz.... but of course ichigo's the best... XD
woah... i had the thought of turning my blog into an anime blog... but looking at how i'm struggling with giving a summary of an anime episode *okies my summary skills sux* i think i can totally forget about it wahahaha~ and besides... i guess i don't have that much patience either... lolz... wow i took 1.5 hours to type this whole thing! *cos i was multitasking - eating dinner watching tv, rewatching 灼眼のシャナ episode 1 to write the summary* all in all... i shouldn't be spending time here when i only have 11 days left for exams!!! and i haven't started studying yet!!! jialats... no mood to study somemore... uninstalled dota but anime's driving me crazy and i'm not going to delete it in anyway... =(
somebody help me!!!
18 October 2005
16 October 2005
what is it that you really want?
don't be afraid for the world you wish for.
when i don't want to do it, u scold me for being irresponsible and stuff.
be afraid for wad?
when i finally do it, you sacarstically comment on how i didn't want to do it and ask me y do it then?
it wouldn't come true in the first place.
then what you want me to do?
go away. i don't need you anymore.
geez. -_- juz make up your mind.
don't be afraid for the world you wish for.
when i don't want to do it, u scold me for being irresponsible and stuff.
be afraid for wad?
when i finally do it, you sacarstically comment on how i didn't want to do it and ask me y do it then?
it wouldn't come true in the first place.
then what you want me to do?
go away. i don't need you anymore.
geez. -_- juz make up your mind.
15 October 2005
09 October 2005
sunday le... time really flies isn't it...
y does it still hurt?
enjoyed myself yesterday... ate alot played alot slacked alot...
go away, i don't need u in my life anymore.
let's see... first in the morning ktv wif my sis... oh well we're not really good singers... but quite furnies we tried to sing duets as in guy gurl duets and we both cmi... lolz... talk abt mo qi... we dun really have cos totally cannot harmonize... siandeds... we either have to have deeper voices or to shrill like some sopranos... lolz *opps my spelling sux*
y do i still dream of u?
after that went to mug abit... did maths and econs tutorial in record speed of less than 2 hours! *supposedly each tutorial takes at least 1 hr... and esp econs i usually take half a night cos i always dun understand the lectures* oh well it sure pays off to go for lectures i actually understand... *winkz* i like my econz tutor/lecturer now... XD
isn't it better if we juz disappear from each other's lives?
then with some worries *wif regards to my schoolwork* put aside... felt more relaxed to enjoy the rest of the day... went to meet pansy n sheila for dinner! at fish & co... so obviously we ate alot of seafood *arr~ all my 同类* haha then we were gossiping at this rudy-look-alike... how he looked super pissed off wif his gf cos they were waiting for such a long time and still couldn't get their seats...
u're enjoying urself, aren't u?
and of course... we attacked the sotongs!!! muahahaha we had like grilled, fried sotongs... plus prawns... heh heh heh and it's quite furnies how we try to eat the prawn from the shell without using hands... sheila always had problems wif her prawns... lolz~ then we ate until we're so full until we almost cannot walk.. hehez...
enjoying how u bring pain to all those who cares.
then went for dessert *ok maybe i was the only one who's really really full* where we went to eat the best tao huay in singapore... hehex~ super duper nice... XD and i kinda wished i neber eat so much at fish n co... cos i no stomach place for tao huay.... for the first time... -_-
stop telling more lies to yourself and others around u.
then gave sheila her prezzie... looks nice on her... hope she really likes it... hehez~ wish her good luck in everything n good luck for upcoming exams... *geez this reminds me i got exam in 3 weeks time sians* n unfortunately sheila wasn't wearing black n white yesterday... she was wearing white top wif blue jeans... -_- but her bag's black... wahaha... so i half right bah... lolz~ n her water bottle is black... we were commenting how it doesn't have a figure like pansy's water bottle has... *but my water bottle worse... fat at the bottom wahahaha~*
i don't need you anymore.
then super duper tireds full n happy... went home... met su weixiang on the way... then me n sheila feel like dian deng pao hehehehez~ tried to siam abit lar... but in the end i went home wif the couple while sheila took nel home... we tried to talk to each other but in the end we're all so tired n brain dead to converse so we juz stared blankly outta the bus window for the rest of the journey... n it was only 10+ at night...
no amount of dota can stop me from thinking anymore.
reach home... time for... WC!!! lolz~ played like crazy again... geez this certainly isn't like a student who has exams in 3 weeks time isn't it...
it still hurts.
y does it still hurt?
enjoyed myself yesterday... ate alot played alot slacked alot...
go away, i don't need u in my life anymore.
let's see... first in the morning ktv wif my sis... oh well we're not really good singers... but quite furnies we tried to sing duets as in guy gurl duets and we both cmi... lolz... talk abt mo qi... we dun really have cos totally cannot harmonize... siandeds... we either have to have deeper voices or to shrill like some sopranos... lolz *opps my spelling sux*
y do i still dream of u?
after that went to mug abit... did maths and econs tutorial in record speed of less than 2 hours! *supposedly each tutorial takes at least 1 hr... and esp econs i usually take half a night cos i always dun understand the lectures* oh well it sure pays off to go for lectures i actually understand... *winkz* i like my econz tutor/lecturer now... XD
isn't it better if we juz disappear from each other's lives?
then with some worries *wif regards to my schoolwork* put aside... felt more relaxed to enjoy the rest of the day... went to meet pansy n sheila for dinner! at fish & co... so obviously we ate alot of seafood *arr~ all my 同类* haha then we were gossiping at this rudy-look-alike... how he looked super pissed off wif his gf cos they were waiting for such a long time and still couldn't get their seats...
u're enjoying urself, aren't u?
and of course... we attacked the sotongs!!! muahahaha we had like grilled, fried sotongs... plus prawns... heh heh heh and it's quite furnies how we try to eat the prawn from the shell without using hands... sheila always had problems wif her prawns... lolz~ then we ate until we're so full until we almost cannot walk.. hehez...
enjoying how u bring pain to all those who cares.
then went for dessert *ok maybe i was the only one who's really really full* where we went to eat the best tao huay in singapore... hehex~ super duper nice... XD and i kinda wished i neber eat so much at fish n co... cos i no stomach place for tao huay.... for the first time... -_-
stop telling more lies to yourself and others around u.
then gave sheila her prezzie... looks nice on her... hope she really likes it... hehez~ wish her good luck in everything n good luck for upcoming exams... *geez this reminds me i got exam in 3 weeks time sians* n unfortunately sheila wasn't wearing black n white yesterday... she was wearing white top wif blue jeans... -_- but her bag's black... wahaha... so i half right bah... lolz~ n her water bottle is black... we were commenting how it doesn't have a figure like pansy's water bottle has... *but my water bottle worse... fat at the bottom wahahaha~*
i don't need you anymore.
then super duper tireds full n happy... went home... met su weixiang on the way... then me n sheila feel like dian deng pao hehehehez~ tried to siam abit lar... but in the end i went home wif the couple while sheila took nel home... we tried to talk to each other but in the end we're all so tired n brain dead to converse so we juz stared blankly outta the bus window for the rest of the journey... n it was only 10+ at night...
no amount of dota can stop me from thinking anymore.
reach home... time for... WC!!! lolz~ played like crazy again... geez this certainly isn't like a student who has exams in 3 weeks time isn't it...
it still hurts.
可惜不是你
这一刻 突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天 今天同时在放映
我这句语气 原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据
差一点 骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己
努力为你改变 却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见
可惜不是你 陪我到最后
曾一起走却 走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
那一段 我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你 已走进别人风景
多希望 也有 星光的投影
努力为你改变 却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见
可惜不是你 陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口
~可惜不是你
梁静茹
i guess it still hurts.
像昨天 今天同时在放映
我这句语气 原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据
差一点 骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己
努力为你改变 却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见
可惜不是你 陪我到最后
曾一起走却 走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
那一段 我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你 已走进别人风景
多希望 也有 星光的投影
努力为你改变 却变不了 预留的伏线
以为在你身边 那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天 可是昨天 已非常遥远
但闭上我双眼 我还看得见
可惜不是你 陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你 牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口
~可惜不是你
梁静茹
i guess it still hurts.
08 October 2005
sat morning... really early i suppose... still have a feeling it's fri night (of course)...
stop telling all ur lies.
tml... so many things to do.. erms... supposed to finish up tutorial and start studying for life science ca in 2 weeks time... plus exams is only 3 weeks away!!! help!
stop saying things when u dun mean it.
going out wif my sis for k lunch laters... wahaha i finally managed to influence her... XD and she has finally discovered the joys of blasting ur voice out on mic in a ktv room hehehehez *talk abt bad influence from sis heh heh hehz~*
i don't need ur lies anymore.
then... dinner wif sheila and pansy... long time neber meet them le... lemme guess... sheila will turn up in... black in white. again... haha let's see if my "prediction" will come true.... haha kinda miss talking to them cos... it's not like u can share ur deeper thoughts wif pple u meet in uni juz like that. i think most pple in uni now would probably agree wif me... the friends u meet in uni are merely hi-bye friends mostly... no one really care to forge strong friendships... especially we all know that we'll only be with each other for like... 1 semester = half a year? lolz... sometimes i really wonder y pple say u meet ur soulmates and ur other half in uni... to me it's juz a bunch of crap cos no one really cares abt each other in uni wahahaha....
stop hurting others while pretending to be sensitive.
n then... when i come back... it'll be a date with dota/tower defense/hero seige? lolz... i wonder wad am i doing when exams are juz 3 weeks away. geez. i need a time out... =S
if u know how it feels like to be in that situation, then stop putting others in that situation.
once again... really like to thank those who really care abt me... pansy sheila kelvin sir seng nico yu chun xiaoli chin hai weixiang su jiayuan lixiang wendee weiling... u guyz really made my day yesterday... =) and of course.. my parents... my sis... no thanks to my brother (haha juz jokings~)
it still hurts.
stop telling all ur lies.
tml... so many things to do.. erms... supposed to finish up tutorial and start studying for life science ca in 2 weeks time... plus exams is only 3 weeks away!!! help!
stop saying things when u dun mean it.
going out wif my sis for k lunch laters... wahaha i finally managed to influence her... XD and she has finally discovered the joys of blasting ur voice out on mic in a ktv room hehehehez *talk abt bad influence from sis heh heh hehz~*
i don't need ur lies anymore.
then... dinner wif sheila and pansy... long time neber meet them le... lemme guess... sheila will turn up in... black in white. again... haha let's see if my "prediction" will come true.... haha kinda miss talking to them cos... it's not like u can share ur deeper thoughts wif pple u meet in uni juz like that. i think most pple in uni now would probably agree wif me... the friends u meet in uni are merely hi-bye friends mostly... no one really care to forge strong friendships... especially we all know that we'll only be with each other for like... 1 semester = half a year? lolz... sometimes i really wonder y pple say u meet ur soulmates and ur other half in uni... to me it's juz a bunch of crap cos no one really cares abt each other in uni wahahaha....
stop hurting others while pretending to be sensitive.
n then... when i come back... it'll be a date with dota/tower defense/hero seige? lolz... i wonder wad am i doing when exams are juz 3 weeks away. geez. i need a time out... =S
if u know how it feels like to be in that situation, then stop putting others in that situation.
once again... really like to thank those who really care abt me... pansy sheila kelvin sir seng nico yu chun xiaoli chin hai weixiang su jiayuan lixiang wendee weiling... u guyz really made my day yesterday... =) and of course.. my parents... my sis... no thanks to my brother (haha juz jokings~)
it still hurts.
05 October 2005
pre-birthday syndrome
every year... at this time... i'll be suffering from the same thing...
pre-birthday syndrome? lolz~
it's a never ending cycle. every year comes and passes without me realising it. and another year just went to waste.
you weren't here last year nor the years before.
perhaps the rainy season is here to stay.
you wouldn't be here tml either.
i hope it doesn't rain tml.
just finished watching the whole of mai-hime anime... it's a great anime... now i wish i could watch it one more time lolz...
supposed to be doing tutorial now... but apparently i don't have the mood.
maybe sleeping early for once is helpful? lolz...
pre-birthday syndrome? lolz~
it's a never ending cycle. every year comes and passes without me realising it. and another year just went to waste.
you weren't here last year nor the years before.
perhaps the rainy season is here to stay.
you wouldn't be here tml either.
i hope it doesn't rain tml.
just finished watching the whole of mai-hime anime... it's a great anime... now i wish i could watch it one more time lolz...
supposed to be doing tutorial now... but apparently i don't have the mood.
maybe sleeping early for once is helpful? lolz...
03 October 2005
i wonder y i'm here...
y am i in uni? y am i studying? do i really enjoy the things i'm doing now?
does time really make memories fade away?
will the things i do really help?
does sleeping and not thinking about anything help at all?
thanks to my kor for his bdae prezzie in advance... and my mum for treating me to sushi... plus my sis for going all the way to suntec with me juz to satisfy my crazy desire for jap food... lolz... hontoni arigatou~
y am i in uni? y am i studying? do i really enjoy the things i'm doing now?
does time really make memories fade away?
will the things i do really help?
does sleeping and not thinking about anything help at all?
thanks to my kor for his bdae prezzie in advance... and my mum for treating me to sushi... plus my sis for going all the way to suntec with me juz to satisfy my crazy desire for jap food... lolz... hontoni arigatou~
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