time

time is like a filter

relationships are filtered through

and those that stay with you as time goes

are those that are important.

however...

time is like sand

the tighter u grasp

the more it slips away from your hands...

change

変わりたい。

変わらなければならない。

だからこそ、変わるよ。

lol

骑白马的不一定是王子，也可能是唐僧。

only youuuuuuuuuu~~~~~~~~~~~

trials

everyday is a battle

everything faced is a trial

you. keep stretching my limits and testing my patience

i'll gladly take up your challenge.

but if i cannot take it

and simply explode,

you. have been warned.

irritated

maybe it's cos of lack of sleep

or maybe it's purely due to bad temper

even so... seriously

sometimes talking more or talking louder than others

doesn't mean others will listen to you more

or that'll catch other pple's attention more.

i just want some peace and quiet...

mind talking softer and saving those incessant speeches for yourself?

human

there is a difference between being true to oneself, and having low EQ.

i wish i could become more mature.

is this a sign of stress?

that i am so restless and unable to focus?

it feels like it's a burn out tournament,

the one who gets burnt out first will get kicked out of the competition.

i am just a human. i am not god.

i don't have all the time in the world.

i can only choose which are the things i can pay attention to.

i can't care about every little thing that goes on around me.

relax. some things can't be helped.

or rather, i simply don't have the energy to help.

so... just let it go.

Trust You

花は風に揺れ踊るように
雨は大地を潤すように
この世界は寄り添い合い　生きてるのに
なぜ人は傷つけ合うの
なぜ別れは訪れるの

君が遠くに行ってもまだ
いつもこの心の真ん中
あのやさしい笑顔でうめつくされたまま
抱きしめた君のカケラに
痛み感じてもまだ　繋がるから
信じてるよ　また会えると
I'm waiting for your love

I love you
I trust you
君の孤独を分けてほしい
I love you
I trust you
光でも闇でも
二人だから信じ合えるの
離さないで

世界の果てを誰が見たの
旅の終わりを誰が告げるの
今は答えが見えなくて　永い夜でも
信じた道を進んでほしい
その先に光が待つから

君が教えてくれた唄は
今もこの心の真ん中
あのやさしい声と共に響いている
溢れる気持ちのしずくが
あたたかく頬つたう
強くなるね
信じてるよ
繋がってると
I'm always by your side

I love you
I trust you
君のために流す涙が
I love you
I trust you
愛を教えてくれた
どんなに君が道に迷っても
そばにいるよ

I love you
I trust you
君の孤独を分けてほしい
I love you
I trust you
光でも闇でも
I love you
I trust you
哀しみでも歓びでも
I love you
I trust you
君の全てを守りたい

どんなに君が道に迷っても
そばにいるよ
二人だから信じ合えるの
離さないで

why

why is it that some people you try so hard to get them out of your life simply keeps appearing in front of you?

unknown

there are so many things you wouldn't know.

we are all so absorbed by our own worlds,

listening to the things we experience first hand.

do we know the true reason why certain events happen?

even if we do, will we take action to respond to the event?

what is kindness?

could harshness bring kindness as well?

a mother's harsh words is likely be perceived as irritating and uncaring to her children. does that mean the mother, who is simply trying to help her children become better people, is not kind at all?

there is a limit to the things that one can achieve or do,

just like how limited one is in the vast universe.

a volunteer to help rebuild an area in a foreign country is a mere passer-by to the people living there. in time, the people in the area would probably forget who the volunteer, that had once helped them out, was. does this erase the help that the volunteer had given before?

whatever that we do, do we expect ourselves to be remembered?

do we expect our actions to make a huge impact on other's lives?

there are just so many things masked beneath the harshness of the world that one would probably never understand.

relax~

people just don't mature overnight.

indifference

some people simply never change.

i miss you guys!!!

i just met with yuchun this afternoon... how long has it been since i last saw you? it's been so long!

we had a really wonderful lunch (opps paiseh it was yc's treat haha) and were like bitching gossiping, but hey, that's the fun u'll have with your girlfriends haha!

i wish i could have more time with you, there's just so many things i want to know about how u're doing now... haha!

i missed you =)

and i miss you too pansy!

august 2010, please come quickly!!! i want to go out and havoc with you guys once again just like those good old times back in school. i wanna go shopping gossiping ice-creaming exercising ktving cycling with u gals! =X

hees! but i guess i can't be that greedy...

i wish i could do more for u gals =)

but the only thing i can say in the meantime is,

take good care of yourselves!!!

i'll see you gals the next cny! *smiles*

help

helping people

a helping of ice-cream

sir, may i help you?

help! i'm drowning!

help out at a store

please help yourselves!

help to relieve pain

just checking out "help" on the dictionary gave so many different meanings to this simple and innocent looking word. this is a word that is used pretty often in the world, as no man is an island (most of the time). at many times of our lives, we give or are subjected to "help" to and from others.

do you enjoy helping others?

why do you help others?

why and when should you help?

some people is always on the look-out to provide help. they've been through those difficult parts of life, where having no help at all was really painful; thus they do not wish for others to follow in their paths.

some help because their friends asked or seems to need help. to help foster and maintain the relationship, they'll offer their hand of assistance, be it gladly or grudgingly.

some just... help. not because of anything. just. out of the pure goodness in their hearts. laugh.

there's another category of people who are pretty eager to help others as well. their motivation is not particularly because they don't want others to follow in their footsteps (cos they might not have been through those difficult times), neither was it particularly because oh they're my friends i'm happy to help them. it's more of an ego issue, where they think highly of themselves, and by helping people it shows not only to themselves, but to others, of their... erms... ability. such people can sometimes become overly zealous in their effort to provide help to others.

frankly speaking, i feel a little bad to be taking apart one's motives for providing help. i mean, it can be so innocent, just like for example, when someone let's a pregnant lady take his/her seat on the train. but, what is the motive behind one's act of giving help? out of the "pure goodness" of his heart? because he doesn't want the pregnant lady to suffer from the pain and discomfort? because the government says so? because the sign on the mrt says so? because he doesn't like the squeezy seat? because he doesn't like the weird fat lady on his left that kept looking at him? because he wants to show his friends who are with him on the train how gentlemanly and how kind he is? because he wants to show off how he is better and more observant than those that are around him?

haha such a simple incident can be complicated into such intensity. i'm not saying that any motive of these is bad or anything, i mean ultimately all these motives whichever it may be, gave rise to the act of him giving up the seat for the pregnant lady. the pregnant lady is very likely to feel gratitude towards the one who gave up his seat, which is a good thing, because it relieved the pregnant lady of her discomfort.

i guess that is just some food for thought.

why do you help others around you?

perhaps it's time to think about your motivation behind your act of graciousness.

however, to tell the truth, despite the wonderful argument i have put up above, i personally hate people who help others based on his or her own personal needs, not because he or her put others' pain into consideration before helping. that is. if i manage to perceive his/her true intentions.

with that said, i wonder if i'm being hypocritical. the line between putting others feelings into consideration and one's personal needs can be so thin that it is non-existent at times.

then again, when you read the title of my post, what did you think this post was going to be about? about me asking for help? or about me discussing the act of helping?

ok, let me clarify. i personally do not like to ask for help actually. but i still will ask if i really meet with difficulties. call it my stubbornness haha.

"helping (people)" sound like such an angelic act. that's because the party subjected to help is greatly benefited. this can be a good or bad thing. when the receiving end starts to abuse the help received, the giving end could be the one in distress instead.

then when and why should one help?

that's.... something that i'm still trying to learn. :D

opps i think i'm going to get slapped by others for such a lousy post ending. ahahaha~

okok let me elaborate then. well, i have my fair share of the help i gave being abused. however, after much thought, though one might become used by others if he/she is too helpful, this does not mean everyone out there are ungrateful b*****ds. opps. but i guess before choosing (ok i'm sorry to those pure and gracious souls out there who don't choose the receiving end of their help) the person you want to help, you must look at the receiver's personality and deduce whether u'll be made use of in the future if u're going to be helpful. of course if you know that guy is mostly going to be ungrateful, you would most likely not offer him that much help to the extent of him having the idea of making use of you. but there are still exceptions to this... principle. like for eg. a parent helping his/her ungrateful children. *suffers an arrow hit*

so the moral of this post is: be nice, help others out based on the empathy and pure goodness of your soul. but look before you help.

erms. sorry for sounding so skeptical. this sorry coming from me is sincere. you have my word.

omg.

i just saw someone on my msn whose nick is my password.

*jaw drops*

argh.

although i kinda accepted the apology, somehow the more i think about it, the angrier i get.

stop thinking about it.

but it's not like there'll be any change in the future.

it's in the personality.

and somehow, this adds on as a fuel for anger.