... sighz....

really sad todae.. haiz..
sometimes really wonder... how can i be so stupid? and so blur? i'm so blur until even i can't stand it myself...
todae.. did pw... dunno.. everyone think i'm the one who organised this meeting.. like i'm the secretary liddat.. supposed to order pple around liddat.. but.. dunno lehz... i juz feel i'm not the type of person who can lead... dunno.. i felt tt i'm better as a leader when i was still in sec school than now... y? i seemed to have forgotten the leader in me...
i feel tt everybody has been very tolerant towards me, no matter how lousy i am.. i'm nobody... always making trouble for others.. hahas.... always slow in catching stuff... last to understand jokes... late coming number 1... have such poor grades and is so lazy... i have so many bad points until i dun even know the whole list... haiz...
weixiang is so nice to me todae... after pw meeting at his house todae... (he pon school todae.. hahas... we had to meet him after he played LAN wif jon...) i practised erhu in his room... wif sheila and zhanxin... haiz... din really practise in detail.. played really lousy there... den the three of them were playing dai di.. hahas.. :P in the end.. almost late for lesson... weixiang sent us to the bus stop... and gave me directions to my teacher's house.. but guess wad?
i lost count of the no of busstops to alight at at around the 4th bus stop... only 7 bus stops to alight lehz.. still can lose count.. wah.. sotong jiu shi sotong.. haiz... never mind... i hailed a taxi.. and had a communication breakdown wif the driver.. wanted to go serangoon ave 3, the driver asked me whether i wanted to go serangoon or serangoon north.. but i din understand... hahaz... really cmi ar..
went for lesson... got "scolded" by xls... cos me and sujuan din really practise throughout the week since end of promos.. haiz... feel like crying... cos... i really din wanna be so lousy... wanted to play better... but i myself... oso very lazy.. deserve it ar... haiz...

WAH~~~~ sundae~~~ :D

wah.. nice sundae morning... it's going to rain.. and so... the weather is really cool.. hahas.. feel like sleeping.. hehes...
i'm aching all over.. hahas.. muz b becoz of playing badminton without any warm up ar.. hahas...
haiz.. still muz mug.. sianded ar... wanna go out and play games.. like bball.. hahas... especially in this cool weather.. it's like calling me out to enjoy myself.. hahas... *juz trying to find excuses to slack.. and dun study for promos.. hahas...*
haiz... still got maths and chem papers coming up... scared tt i cannot make it.... made a lot of bets with so many pple.. if i dun get my two s papers.. i'll really go bankrupt.... hahas....

wO|f's rAiN rOx ~~~~~

hehes...
juz now really sianded ar. went to watch anime again... anime rox.. :D
wolf's rain is a really nice anime.. at least tt's my opinion after i watched the first two episodes... the main character, kiba... seems really cool... i feel that all the characters in the anime have rather complex inner worlds... the part where the wolves could pass off as humans in the human city was rather fascinating to me.. :D ... dun noe how they could manage to do tt... somemore they can even speak our language... wow... hehes... but tt's cos it's an anime, isn't it? hehes... :D
thinking of anime.. my mind drifts to yuki from fruits basket.. hehes... he's so... shuai.. okies larz.. in my opinion... :D :D :D wah~~~~ really trying to save up money like hell so that i can own the entire set of manga... wah~~~~ FRUITS BASKET ROX BIG TIME ~~~~ :D :D :D
hahas.. i guess i'm juz another anime-manga-freak.. hehes... hahas... hope no one minds.. hehes.. :D
hahas... wah.. slack so long liaoz.. better get back to mugging.. hehes.. :D

back from the game.... :D

hahas... played badminton with my brother for abt 1.5 hours juz now... hahas...
now.. my hand can't even hold my pen properly.. it's trembling.. hahas.. but .. at least ... in the beginning when i was playing.. i finally took my mind of things and really enjoyed the game... hahas... it was kinda furnie... i was playing... trying to hit the shuttlecock.. then my shoe came off... so embarrassing... luckily only my brother was there to witness this "embarrassing" moment... hahas...
feeling much more light hearted now... hehes.. :D
wanna mug chem now... especially after tt horrible physics paper.. juz wanna do really well for the upcoming chem paper.... plus.... the F MATHS paper~~~~ wah.... the moment i think about it... i'll..... =_=||| ... haiz.. cannot make it ar... f maths = fail maths for me ar... whether got study or not.. the result would still be the same.. hahas...
wah.. really wanna study my chem lehz.. but my hand still trembling.. hahas. dunno ar.. maybe.. it's juz an excuse for me to slack... ;P

another day of a zombie.. hehes...

hahas.. another day is half gone....
dunno why... juz cannot da qi jing shen... sianded... really sianded... dunno y....
really miss my ac frienz and ny friends... wanna chat wif them.... wanna play bball... wanna play badminton. anything... juz wanna get moving around.. but.. dun seem to have the mood to do so.... really... sianded....
dunno... juz feel that... maybe... no body can understand... i can't understand myself either.. hahas... loads of stuff i wanna do.... i wanna get my two s papers.. really need it.. but... today... i dun think i did well for my physics paper... haiz...
i dunno how i'm going to survive through all these.... i need a scholarship at the end of next year.... i wanna earn money to help my family overcome the crisis.... i wanna... so many things...
there are so many things on my mind.... even studying cannot take my mind off these things... haiz...
okies ar.. i wanna go play badminton liaoz.. hahas.. gtg....

hehes.. first try.. hahas..

hahas... first time using my new blog.. kinda furnie... was chatting wif nico juz now... telling him tt he should get his own blog so that he can vent his suppressed emotions in that tiny space online... hahas.. now i suppose it's my turn... to create my own blog. hahas.. :P