juz for fun...

saw this on a random blog... juz tot it's fun to put this here... =)


RULES: 1. Put your birth month in an entry.2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.3. Bold the four that best apply to you.4. Put all twelve months under a journal cut.
*my comments are in brackets*


OCTOBER:

Loves to chat. *actually.. yesh... hahaz~ how did u know? :P*
Loves those who loves them. *of course... or else hate them mehz? =X*
Loves to takes things at the center. *eh... how abt... donuts?*
Inner and physical beauty. *me? wad beauty?*
Lies but doesn't pretend. *er... i dunno abt this...*
Gets angry often. *ask kelvin*
Treats friends importantly. *i guess so... =)*
Always making friends. *er.... dunno abt this... hahahahaz~*
Easily hurt but recovers easily. *easily hurt yes... but... recovers easily? dun think so...*
Daydreamer. *hahaz... of course.*
Opinionated. *wad's the meaning of this word? =X*
Does not care of what others think. *yeah right.*
Emotional. *er... hahaz... those who know me well would know... ha~*
Decisive. *ha... ha... ha~*
Strong clairvoyance. *eh... i'm only a sotong lehz.... dun even know wad's going round me.. =S*
Loves to travel, the arts and literature. *love arts n maybe lit... but dun really like to travel cos lazy to move my heavy butt... ha~*
Touchy and easily jealous. *ahems. ask... someone... ha~*
Concerned. *oh well... i dunno abt this...*
Loves outdoors. *er... provided... there's... VOLLEYBALL!!! XD*
Just and fair. *eh.... i hope? =P*
Spendthrift. *er... unfortunately... yes... but but BUT i stress i'm not spendthrift when i buy stuff for myself using my own money.... hahahahahahaz~*
Easily influenced. *yes.... unfortunately... =S*
Easily loses confidence. *yesh... unfortunately... guess it's something i have to change... ask someone.. ha~*
Loves children. *yar... sorta love them... =)*



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JANUARY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY:Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but those not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH:Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL:Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY:Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE:Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY:Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST:Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER:Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER:Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER:Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER:Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

就是爱你

就是爱你
歌手:陶喆 专辑:太平盛世

我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀
让我飞也有回去的窝

我愿意我也可以
付出一切也不会可惜
就在一起看时间流逝
要记得我们相爱的方式

就是爱你爱着你
有悲有喜有你
平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你
甜蜜又安心
那种感觉就是你

我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我的翅膀
让我飞也有回去的窝

我愿意真的愿意
付出所有也要保护你
oh 在一起时间继续流逝
请记得我有多么的爱你

oh 就是爱你爱着你
不弃不离
不在意一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你
放在你手心
灿烂的幸福全给你

oh 就是爱你爱着你
我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你
要我们在一起

爱我还是他

爱我还是他
歌手:陶喆 专辑:太平盛世

黑暗中的我们都没有说话
你只想回家
不想你回家
寂寞深的像海太让人害怕
温柔你的手
轻轻揉着我的发

你的眉眼说你好渴望我拥抱
你身体却在拼命逃
但欲望在燃烧

你爱我还是他
是不是真的他要比我好
你为谁在挣扎
爱我还是他
就说出你想说的真心话
你到底要跟我还是他

爱爱爱......

这是不是命运对我的惩罚
爱你也没办法
恨你也没办法
陷在这个漩涡只想挣脱它
拉住你的手
却让我也被拖下

你的眉眼说你不渴望我拥抱
每当爱变成了煎熬
你就开始要逃

你爱我还是他
是不是我可以做他的好
你不再挣扎
爱我还是他
我宁愿听到残忍的回答
也不要再被耍

你爱我还是他
我为你找了一百个理由
我就是那么傻
爱我还是他
是否沉默代替你的回答
我应该明白吗

爱我还是他噢
你都已看不到我们的好
我还会心牵挂
你爱我还是他
是否沉默就是你的回答
我们都别挣扎
去爱他

reflections for the week...

after an extremely eventful week... i've realised that...

i dun wanna get angry again....

ask kelvin... he had a taste of my temper *which isn't good at all... =X*

and once i'm angry... i can no longer control myself using logic... and i'll start to get extremely irrational...

and once that happens... i can no longer be the gentle person i am.... *or so i hope*

so... i dun wanna turn into the other "me".... not again, as far as possible.. =X













and... i wanna tell u... sorry that i keep questioning u... it's cos of my... fear... =X *wonder if u'll ever read this... hahahaz~* when i'm afraid.... my emotions take over me and i no longer become rational juz as above... and so.... i start to question.... i know that no one likes to be questioned *wif the probable exception of teachers bah*.... but... when that happens the logical and considerate side of me juz evaporates away...

wait. wad considerate side of me.. =X













aniwae... guess wad? i'm eating chips now... hahahahaz.. and my throat hasn't really fully recovered yet... todae finally my voice is slightly back.. can start to sing song again without going off key so much.... hahahaz... still coughing though.... :P but... who cares... :P

thinking abt the past again... munching the hot and spicy fried sotong... *which makes me wana gulp down loads of water... cos so hot!!!* reading naruto manga now... now got new chapter!!! makes me feel so so so happy.... XD

yet... now that i've finished reading... a new feeling of.. siandedness falls over me... =X

feeling tireds.... of all those things happening to me this past week... and no idea of whether it's going to continue the coming week...

waiting for something else to happen? i dunno... but... i dare not presume any more... cos... when u start to presume, the higher your hopes get... and.. the greater ur fall will be when u realised that u're simply assuming too much...

and once again... that's y i'll question... so that... i am sure... that i'm not presuming... and to make myself know wad reality actually is... before i start to think too much... start to be too confident... until... once i'm on cloud nine, but i have to get down... i'll have to make a heavy fall...

so... it's all an effort to protect myself bah...

though that's really.. selfish? of me... =X

once again... i shall presume that u wun see all these here...

the upcoming week would be another tiring and tedious one... dunno whether i can survive it again in one piece... but i guess... i have no choice but to face it like a wo-man... =X

化力气为浆糊...

after being super duper mad at everybody in the world for two days... *see above entries*....

i'm alrights now...

thanks to pple who have all showed me concern over this matter... be it my dad... my kor *who had to withstand my bad temper as well* and wendy... and thankx pansy...

now... feeling loved by all those ard me...

juz yesterday... my cough/flu/headache had gotten worse.. until when i was at work, keep sneezing.. nose block, mind groggy.. work efficiency at new low... den pauline was so so so kind and gave me this flu/cough remedy... which tastes... rather horrible... but... it made me feel better after drinking it... =) she's really like my mum... taking care of me here and there.... though there are times when... ahems... i think she dun like me... like... todae.. hahahaz~

todae quite slack mahz... den so after i secretly installed msn messenger on my computer in my office.. right under pauline's nose... i started chatting wif my "brother" (my RO mate) online... lolz~ alan/allen was behind me and he was like... heyz~ 小妹... 没人在的时候才这样..." ... so i closed my msn... =X

and after that... pauline gave me loads of work... -_-'''

okies larz... i deserve it..

but todae my working efficiency was so scary that pauline is super stressed... "aiyoh... 你做事怎么做得比我快那么多？" hahaz... quite happy wif myself todae for this bah.... *cos managed to stress pauline... ha~ kidding larz...*

hmms... chris is super sick todae... got skin allegy... den cannot come for work... reminds myself of me when i was young.. cos last time i oso kanna loads of such allegy... =S very 辛苦 one... =S so as a friend... wish that he'll get better soon... =)

which reminds me.... chris is super like jiahong.... i dunno y oso.. =X both equally white? =P













on my way home juz now... was thinking of the things which happened to me these few days... i still remembered yesterday... while i was on the lrt going to my student's house for tuition... i felt that life is so 苦... cos i was super tireds.... work wasn't going well for me... in fact everything wasn't good at all... especially in my groggy state... but after last night... i realised that... i'm being loved... by my collegues.... by my family... my good friends..
and my loved one...
and so... i stopped thinking that way... and i realised that.... even though life could be tough now... there are also sweet moments which bring smiles to my face whenever i think of them...

so.... once again... i shall start believing in the light in me... and to believe in those worthy of my trust....














and did i mention that i juz got my first pay??? *beams wif pride* XD but pple... chotto matte, dun rush to me for treats cos i'm still broke... =X

after all the ranting, be it here, to my parents, or within my mind... all that's left behind is sorrow...

no thoughts now... almost nothing in my mind..

except somewhere deep within.... all the past events had been flashing back every now and then...

enough.. i told myself... stop all those... flashbacks...

so many ifs.... if i had not done this.... maybe things would have turned out better... no one would have to suffer... maybe.. everybody would be happier...

we could have stayed where we were...

and... maybe we can be spared from... all those things which happened.

i'm sorry...











but...

the moment i thought about the things which happened once again...

the moments which brought warmth to my heart... and yours too i hope...

i realised that...

even if it might be better that these things have never happened...

i can't bear to go back to square one...

angry sotong

lemme juz say this. i'm not in a hahaha happy mood

maybe ignorance is bliss... but how long can u pretend that u have no idea wad's going on?

maybe it's simply not my personality to pretend that i dun noe...

except to those i dun consider close at all.

or maybe it's simply cos i trust pple too easily

far too easily

such that they no longer have to earn my total trust, but only for me to lose my trust for them bit by bit

that's it

for a while, i no longer trusted pple anymore

until someone showed me that there are still pple in the world who can be trusted

and i trust again

but now... i realised how naive i was

maybe now it's time for the awakening.

sick.

geez.. this is the second time i'm typing this...

guess wad?

i'm sick... =S
so.... sorry...
feeling groggy now... originally it started wif... a minor sore throat last night... but after my sleepless night, it has become full fledged... until i lost my voice this morning... actually not really lost my voice larz.. it's juz that it's so painful until i juz dun wanna open my mouth le... dun wanna drink water oso.. =S
i really wanted to go send u off todae
bet alan/allen spread it to me.. =X
though u dun allow me to.. ha~
now i really hope i wun spread to my sis... cos she's oso coughing like siao now... =S
or... juz at least meet u todae...
hope that by tml, i'll be better... or else i'll really die at my workplace tml.. =S
but i guess i'm too greedy le...
and somehow.. it seems that loads of weird things happen todae... when i'm sick.. =X
maybe this sorethroat's telling me to stop being so stubborn
haiz~
juz wanna tell u...
juz now, on my way home, felt so darn groggy until i almost dieded... especially wif that hot sun... =S but now.. luckily i still made it back home in one piece... hehez~ going to sleep laters, after my lunch which i'm having quite a lot of trouble swallowing.. =X
take carez... try not to get tekan again...
i hate being sick!!! =(
and... cya in a week's time, i hope
btw, i solved the prob of maple story le.. so now i can finally restart playing again... though now i've gotta use a new account... start all the way from lvl 1 again... sianz~ but heyz... at least now can play le... =)
jiayouz! it'll be over soon.. =)
maybe this is the only consolation i get for being sick.. ha~

heyz... i finally saw this on zhiyong's blog after like.. 2 years since i wanted to post it online.. so yar.. here u go...

"I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all."

brings back old memories...

aniwae... todae at work... allen *sorry for spelling his name as alan in the previous entry* was trying to teach me abt life... life is like ur hand... the back of ur palm is black, turn it ard and it's white... and juz observe ur fingers... it can be short or long...

at first i dun get his analogy... but after thinking for a bit... finally got a bit of "enlightenment"... lolz~

and how can i forget? how insensitive and low eq i was to start questioning chris abt his gf... lolz~ i juz went up to him and started asking.. heyz~ going on a date ar? lolz~ den super 38, started probing abt his love life.. =X and so he naughtily smsed me when i din give him my phone no to say... heyz~ girl wif low eq... lolz!

sighz~

can't wait for tml to come.. cos.. after tml it's hol!! no need to work for a day... lolz~

i guess when u're in a bad mood.. it stays... ur thoughts swirling in ur mind simply makes things worse.

okies. i'm cynical, okies?

work todae was good... as in... got to slack... on the first day of work lehz! lolz~ muahahahaz~ learnt how to work the programs in there.. realised that the comps in the company are darn slow.. lolz~

i swore to myself when i lost my cookie job that i'll treat work more seriously... i will.

and i hope that tml i'll have loads of work so that i can totally forget abt time...

todae, if not for chris and jenny who were like rushing me off, *and not forgetting pauline and alan... who were working wif me in the same office but until 7pm* it's furnie that i can knock off b4 5.30 when the job's from 8 to 530... lolz~ and apparently... the company kinda encourage knocking off early? hmms... lolz~

pauline is like my mentor.. she's super nice... keep saying sorry to me *juz like me... hahahaz~* cos i keep doing all my stuff too fast, den got prob go to her, but she too busy to attend to me, keep apologising... making me feel super bad... =S so hope that tml i wun disturb her that much... haiz~

once again... THANKEW SHEILA for helping me find the job... XD

going to work again tml... shall sleep well tonites and push wadeva thoughts i have to the very back of my mind until it reaches a cliff and drops out of my mind. wadeva i'm trying to say. if u get wad i mean. hahahaz~

okies... let's see how badly i screwed up my blog... sobz...

juz now while trying to "beautify" my blog... *which obviously din turn out well...* i did a few things to the pic of yuna... *oh~ poor yuna... =X* and now... if u guys manage to see this entry... good for u... or else i'm in deep shit... lolz~

aniwae.. juz made pancakes to eat... *finally~ ha~* and guess wad? me and my mum went crazy and put prawns in the pancakes... the prawns themselves taste nice... but not together wif the pan cake... lolz~

sighz~ 4 something only... tml starting work... blog down~ arrgh... stressed!

PS. finally the 4-11 class blog is up!!! cheerios to yuchun!!! XD

okies.. dun ask me y there's this sudden change in blog layout... i juz.. feel like it... hahahahaz...
wanted to make the theme of the blog
aniwae.. this is juz a revised edition of the previous blog layout, in case u guys din realise.. ha~
abt how i'll be waiting for u...
hmms.... this layout is still not finalised... wanna add some words to the image in the background.. but dunno how... somemore i oso dun wan the image size to be too big cos later my web host dun allow the file transfer den u'll see a black background.. not very nice as well...
how i miss u...
aniwae... hope u guys like this layout.. hahahaz... cos.. i juz kinda missed yuna... =)


but i guess u wun even notice my feelings towards u.


hmms.... let's see... todae when i woke up.... originally wanted to make pancakes for myself, but too lazy le... :P woke up wif aching shoulder joints... probably cos....

ahems..

now i officially announce that... i'm a proud owner of a mahjong set and mahjong table..

guess wad? yesterday when me and my mum were doing our weekly groceries shopping *yawnz~*... we saw... a mahjong set plus table going at $38+++!!!! super cheap bargain lehz!!! den of course a gambling ghost like me would straight away jump at the great bargain... result in... me carrying that really heavy mahjong table home all by myself... wif the help of my dad's car, but still... i guess i din do exercise for a long long time le... so now.. shoulders aching lohz... lolz~

now wondering wad improvements i can make to this blog.. ha~

starting work tml... bought loads of office wear stuff... blouse, handbags... blah blah blah.. dunno whether i'm scared abt work or nots.. lolz~ but... hope i can do well for this job.. shall jiayouz.. hehez~

kkz.. me going out now.. cya~

hehez... guess wad? i finally found a job!!! thankew sheila who offered me this job! XD

okok... it's not the one i was describing happily in my previous entry.... well... i kinda got cheated on the previous job interview thingy... cos went down yesterday to see how these guys work... and instead of organising roadshows or so they said... they're juz selling charity tickets along the streets... haiz~ cheat my time... lolz~ but aniwae... i went down wif yuchun... and the two of us managed to chat loads... so... well... those guys are forgiven... ha~

aniwae.... now feeling sians... juz finished eating lunch... feeling a little... erms.. sleepy... hahahahaz... RO server down, so is maple story.. meaning i'm stuck wif nth to do but to sleep.. hahaz..

but i shall try to resist the temptation... TRY.

now chatting wif pansy... hahahaz... all of a sudden kinda miss the class... yesterday i cleared a bit of my room.. den looked through photos... and started missing my ny sec 4 class... plus... the jc class lohz... which brings my mind to... my autograph book... WHERE ARE U NOW??? so... will the kind holder of my autograph book now.. pls sms me or something.. to at least lemme know where my book is... =X

and pansy is now telling me all the details of this exotic lingerie she wanna own... lolz~

been thinking abt things again... listening to SHE encore again and again.... drifting... and drifting...

*slap slaps* gosh.. i was abt to fall asleep juz now... hahaz... =S maybe i shall really pay my bed a visit now.. ha~

once again.... this update is to tell the whole world that i'm still alive and kicking.. ha~ and not to mention.. that how bored i am...

but this wun be the case once i start work next week... sobz~

office wear... high heels? eeks... aniwae... i shall strive to work hard for the upcoming new task... hehez... guys out there... do wish me luck.. ha~

hmms... i'm back...

yeah yeah... i'm still alive.. alive and kicking...

juz realised my dear good best friend has a new blog!!! hehehez~ welcome to the blogging community!!! *fireworks pls*

aniwae... i'm back to the cheery bubbly girl le.... hahahaz...

todae went for another job interview... this sounds like an interesting job... organise all sorts of events, get to work wif loads of pple... i'm kinda looking forward for the session wif our trainers b4 my second interview tml... =) hope i can finally shed the status of being unemployed tml... hehez..

and not to forget... there's oso a job of admin offered by the science centre.... though it sounds boring... at least if i dun get my "ideal" job tml, i still have another job pending...

and i've oso got a tuition job...

y am i looking for job? cos... my cookie job ditched me... *sobz* cos while i was slacking my one week away after the e2 job, they found another family member to take over my place... so.. okies lohz... but aniwae... a little upset cos i tot i had a job secured le... stupid me larz... hahaz...

aniwae.... putting such things aside... there are other minor unhappy incidents which happened while i tried looking for a job.. like two days ago, when i tried to look for an admin job, kanna scolded by the person on the other side of the phone cos i was unsure of wad i want... cos we were trying to set the interview time the next day, but i couldn't make up my mind abt wad time i wanna go over.... so she became quite frustrated and replied me in a rather sacarstic tone abt how i shouldn't be doing this cos i'm the one looking for a job... okies, point taken... but i was still a little mad at her... originally wanted to ask her more abt the job, but... haiz.. forget it larz.. so hung up lohz.

next day, went over for the job interview... *den pangseh sheila cos originally i wanted to go for another job interview wif her* and guess wad? they din wan pple like me who are waiting for a level results... wad de.. waste my time.... but nvm larz... i din really hold high hopes for this one.. but... juz... GIMME BACK MY BUS FARE!!!

sobz~

nowadays... no longer a student means loads of things.. first, no need to wake up at 6... next, can sleep anytime i like... third, can play online games the whole day... fourth no need to worry abt tests or exams... BUT BUT BUT.... it means that i oso no longer have to go to school... meaning that my bus fare will be AT LEAST 60cents and above... meaning that last time i spend $10 on transport for two weeks will no longer apply... nowadays i spend $10 for like.. 4 days? siandeds... aniwae... kinda miss schooling... like i mentioned in the previous entries.... haiz~

13th jan... how time flies... somehow i managed to slack... like.. 11 days away? tsk tsk... time to spring back into action loh.... =)

i guess... it would be a long long time b4 i ever update on my blog again...

starting work soon again...

for now... i think... i'll take a break from blogging...

dun worry abt me... i'm fine... juz probably.. tireds bah... hahaz...

so.. till then...

别说对不起
s.h.e. encore

望远镜 看不见你
你的心 飞去哪里
雾上飞行 想像黑夜的经历

别说对不起 别让我伤了心才说 不是故意
我却无法怪你
别说对不起 别让我的爱情变成 廉价物品
我却只能爱你

闭上眼睛 却看见你
想你的好 代替无力
我相信你 却开始不信任自己

别说对不起 别让我灰了心才说 不是故意
我却无法怪你
别说对不起 别让我的爱情变的 小心翼翼
我却只能爱你

用行动来证明 你的决心
不要说说而已
我想要的不只是 sorry

雾上飞行 想像黑夜的经历
别说对不起 别让我伤了心才说 不是故意
我却无法怪你
别说对不起 别让我的爱情变成 廉价物品
我却只能爱你

害怕

as the fateful day approach... things seem to start getting worse and worse...

我很怕。

would u alleviate my fears?

reflections...

okok.. i'm back...

yesterday was the last day of me working at the atrium there... thinking back on my work performance, i think i totally sux... hahaz... *sorry for that.. er... "vulgar" word.. =X*

hmms... juz like wad someone said.. *i can't remember who* it's okies to be blur wif ur friends.. but u can't be blur to ur boss... guess i did both.. haiz... there was once my male boss was trying to sort out our products.. den i stupidly went up to him and asked... sir.. wad size are u looking for? and it was only when my collegue told me he's the boss den i realised my stupid mistake..

and ever since then i had been quite afraid of my boss... hahaz..

but aniwae.. yesterday's the last day le... hope i wun get to see him again... ha~

speaking of work... sighz... really really think i totally sux... but... nvm... i'll start afresh on the cookie job... sighz...

thinking of loads of things now... mind drifting.. drifting... melting into the cold wet weather...

have loads of things to settle this week... pray everything would go fine... and... be strong...

juz read this on someone else's od... thought i shall post it here first..

"I never knew love. He taught me love and he showered me with it. But he too, pull me down from heaven to hell just when I thought I was supposedly the happiest woman on earth."

hmms.. actually... i'm going for work in say.. 8 mins time? still trying to gulp down my hot hot hot porridge... and haven't put on makeup yet!!! sheesh... shall update soon... todae's my last day le... hahahaz...

basically blogging here to juz say... i'm still alive and kicking... shall be back soon... =P