being so distant away from home makes me feel dejected at times... i try hard to talk to my friends in singapore often, but these days whenever i reach home i often feel too tired, or i'm busy with household chores and i seldom have the time to talk to these people in depth... it's not only the first month into me being in foreign lands, and i already feel like giving up trying to remain connected to the friends i left behind...

i fell sick yesterday... had a sore throat and slight fever, but luckily i drank loads of water, orange juice, and took panadol, so today i'm better... or maybe the red wine i drank yesterday at the annual dinner made me feel better...? i don't know haha! but at one point in time when i was stoning on the bus, i had this strange and weird thought : what if i were to die alone in a foreign land? opps that felt so sad man... then i was laughing at my plight... dots. sorry lars u guys have to forgive me... i was trying so hrad to entertain myself...

i feel like such a good girl these days... everyday i wake up at around 530am... wash up eat breakfast, get out of the house at 6.40am, reach company at (the earliest) 720am... else like today i reached on the dot... 8am... shanghai transport seriously is crazy... work work~ until knock off... official timing is 4.45pm, but we usually drag a little trying to wait for each other to finish up our work... then i'll try my best to rush home, earliest at around 6pm... and then wait for the rest of my housemates to reach home so that we can settle dinner together... after that it's tv time, bathe time... applying moisturiser and conditioner and then i go sleep at 10pm (i try ^^) omg. so no life...

but i'm not complaining about my life here that much... it's fun here working in my company... my supervisor is damn zai, and i dunno y he feels like my dad... ? maybe cos both of them are engineers... i kind of chong2 bai4 my supervisor cos he's very sharp and decisive and settles things damn fast... and he's very precise with his words... and his english is not bad! and he's a nice guy. wait why am i singing his praises on my blog. dots... but i'm really happy working on the projects he gave me... i dunno y hahaha~ 1 is to develop a web application for a maintenance records database... at first i thought it shouldn't be too tough, but as more and more requirements come in... i don't think i can complete it in the 3 weeks i originally set it to be... =X but it's really fun... i learn alot about programming imo =) maybe this is one of the reasons why i like my supervisor a lot =)

yesterday i had my company's annual dinner! food was... a lot. it seems like company dinners always involve a lot of food... and alcohol... i drank a little bit of wine... though i could have rejected probably... take it as warm up for my crazy housemates who wanted to chiong martel tonight... heng they decided to push back ah... gives me more time to think of excuses to siam from drinking.. opps! but at the dinner we had quite a lot of "free gift"... had 3 slabs(?) of different types of nian2 gao1... there's red bean, 5 treasures... and the last one i have yet to check haha! then there was this really nice guy who gave us a huge box of chocolates each.. that costs like 100rmb! wah i felt shou4 chong3 ruo4 jing1... but i dun really eat chocolate, so this means they're going to my housemates haha!

performed kit chan's home at the dinner yesterday... felt quite good... cos i haven't sang for like... 2 weeks? opps. last time at home can sing whenever i like... now when i'm here i have to be more conscious... cannot sing as and when i like... even music... i don't dare to on my speakers... so i'm usually musicless... and it's painful for me cos i'm someone who needs music to survive probably... =X but luckily today on my way home i managed to listen to my mp3... and right now no one's in the living room now, so i on my speakers and i'm listening to fahrenheit's new album... well, not all their songs are "wow"~ but some are not bad... gotta give them credit for the hard work they put in =)

to my friends who were waiting for my email replies, i'm sorry i was really busy this week and so my replies are kind of delayed... erms pansy i'll email you once i think of how to solve the maths problem... i don't know why my brain probably froze here cos of the constant wind in shanghai, but that's besides the point... i hope i can get enough rest and personal time this weekend... so that i can do the stuff i need to do... next week is 9 straight working days waiting for me... i'm working on sat and sun too! omg. >.<

alrighty, time to hit my pillows =) hope i can come back to post a little more frequently (that is if the connection decides to be stable enough for me to even enter blogger site ^^)

seriously... shanghai air is waayyyy too polluted... =(

Sometimes i wonder... whether i'm a fishmonger by nature. i can't help but to feel selfish in most occasions that occur when i'm together with my housemates... am i just thinking too much? i feel that we 包容 each other alot... but more of them 包容ing me... and it doesn't feel good to me, cos i'm the kind of person who doesn't like to be in debt to others... not to say that being considerate to others will make that person in debt to you... just that maybe... i don't like to be usually on the receiving end bah... i want to contribute too?

but then again there's the issue of... what if i contribute too much? when someone contributes too much as compared to others... there's the danger of others making use of you... i can't tell whether i'm in this potential danger with my current clique yet... but i can't help but to... be cautious? too many past experience liaos... i couldn't say i enjoy on the giving end most of the time...

so i suppose, as a libra-ian... i'll have to somehow strike a balance between giving and receiving... i feel in debt to my housemates and my friends in shanghai... they really help me a lot, but i don't know whether i'm helping them enough. and i don't know how i can help them... with the little common sense and knowledge i have... and i think i have a really bad habit of spacing out when i'm together with the clique... or rather i might just be too quiet in their clique i suppose... maybe when i'm in huge groups that are close to each other i tend to be more quiet... and let them interact themselves... i don't like to fight for the chance to talk i suppose... *opps trying to find excuse for myself again hahaha*











i'm starting work tml! excited and nervous... and the weather's going to be cold tml too! 2-5 degrees not taking into the wind factor... once there's wind then gone case liaos, most likely below 0 degrees le... today it snowed a little... i hope and hope not it snow... hope cos i have never been to a country that snowed in my life before! hope not cos... it'll be damn cold and i don't know if i'm able to take it! and then... i don't know why... it seems like my fellow ntu collegues are... rather unfriendly? or maybe i was unfriendly to them first... i dunno... it's like we never contact each other to like go to work together or something... but i hope tomorrow when i meet them *i hope*... we can probably mix around and get each others contacts n things like that...

i went shopping today! went to 七浦路 again... i bought 2 leg warmers, a pair of leather gloves, and a long white woolen coat... i hope these can help me fight the cold better! and i'm broke! TTnTT i spent like almost 300rmb just today... *inclusive of meals and other miscellaneous stuff* haiz i must end my princess lifestyle and start my budget life! eat maggie noodles every night! lol i'm joking... the roadside stalls near my apartment sell really cheap food too... probably about the same price as cooking maggie mee haha! so that can be an alternative for my dinner =)

today i learnt how to iron jeans! thanks to kian tong who taught me how... though the 徒弟 abit cannot make it... but at least it doesn't look as crumpled as before... i just pray that no one will stare at my butt area when i wear that pair of jeans cos it's the part i don't know how to iron hahaha~ so that side is crumpled XD

and i washed like... 8 pieces of clothes today! hand wash somemore! sighz now i understand my mum's pain whenever we keep throwing in our jeans to the washing basket when we wear for like 1-2 days only... and i should have brought more clothes that doesn't require handwashing! sighz~

overall these few days had been fun! always going out... i just went for the best steamboat in shanghai plus overnight ktv on friday... for 120rmb = 20+sgd! the food at the steamboat place was not bad... service ok... we had a room to ourselves that night! then i learnt how to suck the bone marrow from the pig bones cos we ordered pig bone soup as our steamboat's soup base =) there's a video taken by my friend's camera but i don't have it with me hahaha~ then ktv was... haha... everybody else very onz when we started at 12midnight... i chui at ard 2am... then when i more alert at around 4... everybody else was asleep by 430pm except me and my 2 other housemates... the ktv room there is like singapore kbox! just that they have big lcd screens! and it seems like singing ktv is more of a family and everybody thing in china as compared to a youngsters-only thing in singapore... which is good imo... cos i love singing and i think everyone should have the chance to sing in ktv too! or rather the environment to sort of like encourage pple not to be shy and just sing in their shower rooms... haha!

alrighty... 10:34pm liaos... time to hit the bed... wish me luck for tml!

heys! surprise!!!

me and my fellow ntu friends found a method to bypass the proxy here in shanghai, so i can actually post my entries on blogger! just that i can't access my blog itself... =( sounds sad haha! but this means... heh. heh. heh.

these few days had been rather tiring for me... been out walking all day long these 3 days... stiff back =( but so far... feel quite productive... cos been buying and settling quite a lot of things!

for now.. let me just post my previous thoughts when i first arrived in shanghai on 6th jan...














06 Jan 2008 10:37pm

Today's my first day here in Shanghai... Been a really cold and tiring day for me... When i first reached shanghai at around 6am in the morning, it was a freaking -1degrees celcius... and i was just wearing a really thin layer of clothes plus my overcoat... it was the first time i experienced "smoke" coming out of my mouth when i spoke out there in the cold...

Spent the rest of the day trying to fix up the basic necessities in our house while fighting with the bitter cold... one moral i learnt today... when u're cold, the best way out is to exercise, like walking to the "nearby" shopping malls or doing some manual work. once u're heated up, even when the wind blows... wad is it man? lmao~ but at the moment now... it's terribly cold until my muscles are starting to ache... and i really wish i don't have to bathe =( we spent like 1k rmb on bedsheets, detergents, quilts etc... and it was ouch for me cos i was the one paying for everything first... tml i have to remember to get back money from them =X it's scary how fast money goes in front of your eyes... and i need to learn how to manage them properly.. 1k sgd plus my monthly 1.5k rmb... i hope i wouldn't have to resort to drawing from atms here... =X

Now... trying desperately to connect to the wireless connection... but failing numerous times... oh well... must wait until the landlord tells us the account id and password... so in the meantime we were trying to tap onto other people's unsecured wireless networks... but of course the shanghainess aren't dumb... so here i am... rather desperate to talk to those people i left in singapore but with no means to do so...

Need to wake up at 6 tml... i wonder if i can do it... i guess i haven't been sleeping proper even before i left for shanghai... and i haven't bathed! =( can i don't bathe pls? the water is freezing cold.. =(

Some other things that left a terrible impression on me... i was targeted by shanghainese for their scams! *already? oh god* there was this old lady who saw me and my room mates buying loads of things and wanted to chalk up the points from our purchases for her shopping card! alright bah... at least so far i can still tell wad they have in mind... i think it's the scariest when you don't know their motives behind approaching you...

But some things *which i don't know whether i'm proud of* is that... probably i resemble the locals in shanghai! several people spoke to me in shanghainese... and even my friends who came together with me commented that the way i dress is as though i'm one of the locals here... er the comments from my friends i don't know how true that really is... but when the locals start speaking to you in their native language i suppose that's a good sign bah.. so yeaps. my next target is to learn shanghainese and pose off as one of the locals here! lmao~

I didn't really take a lot of photos here... but i hope i can do so tomorrow! for now... all i can think of is how to escape from the biting cold and how in the world am i going to go for the gip group meeting tml... and not forgetting how to get to my workplace!

I miss a lot of people from Singapore... Thanks pansy for your muffins! erms actually i haven't got the chance to eat them yet... but they smell really good! i'm saving them for breakfast tml =) and thanks to sheila shianchi and yin for coming to send me off yesterday night! took some really scandalous photos there bwahahahaha~~ and of course my family... darn i wish i have internet today to let them know i'm alright *except for being extremely cold* and all those who wished me bon voyage and to have a safe and fun trip... =) i don't know how to express my gratitude =) and... =)

ok it sounds stupid... but 6 mths to go in shanghai! jiayous! =) *now why am i even counting down the moment i first step into shanghai? o.O*

hihi peeps! and... goodbye to all! i'll be flying to shanghai tml... don't know if i'll have the chance to pop by here to post... doing loads of last minute packing *well i'm out practically everyday with all my friends and stuff... hehex* so... yeaps. if i can i'll post my new blog link in the tag so do check it out! i hope i get my internet connection in at most a week when i'm in shanghai...

i'll miss everyone here in singapore! and the food! and my family... ok lemme take back the previous statement. hmph. they always sia suay me and say i confirm plus chop will be super duper homesick there... so nopes. i'm going to show u guys i'm strong ok. hehex =)

i had my second ktv session of the holidays today... had my first two days ago haha! i hope i get to go more ktvs in shanghai since it's pretty cheap there ^^ and now the song that i really wanna learn is...






一秒钟的永远
歌手：潘嘉丽

每个人的心中都有一个小的梦
像蜻蜒点在微微涟漪水中
涟漪往往只会泛起短短一秒钟
却让人怀念的好久好久

在我们的爱情中总是太多风波
忘记它才能安然度过

释怀后的拥抱虽短感动却很久
就在爱情离开了我那么久以后
我还清晰记得在你怀中丰富感受
只一秒钟却永远了

虽然许多爱的可能在门外经过
为甚么我还深锁自己无动于衷
是一秒钟的天长地久深深包围我
只一秒钟却成为了永远







sighz. back to my packing. =X