就算你的人生到了顶底，事情也会有好转的一天。
no matter what shit life throws at you... you can simply turn all those shit into bricks for you to climb higher...
what a shitty analogy.
一个人再怎么脆弱，也会有他坚强的一面。
所以。。。就算难过、害怕得想哭。。。也要告诉自己。。。这是让自己显出坚强的机会。
至少。。。你还活在这个世上。你还有周围的家人，朋友。。。还能感觉得到太阳晒在皮肤的温度，感觉得到人生的喜怒哀乐。。。还有。。。还有。。。
28 April 2005
如果这世上真的有神，就请所有神明保佑我周围的人。。。
after all the things that happened today...
i guess... i'm glad that i'm still alive... and that my family is around me... and... i've got so many friends who care about me...
my... dad... was involved in a car crash.
he was going to fetch me from my workplace to go for tuition...
and just as he reached the road a few metres away from my company... a huge truck rammed into the left of my dad's car.
on board... there were three of my dad's collegues... and they had minor injuries.. luckily... and fortunately... my dad wasn't hurt... juz... dazed...
he said he's ok... he called the insurance company... called up the pple to tow the car away... called for the ambulance, called the police... and even called home... and assured my family that he's ok...
he seemed so calm... knowing what to do in whatever situation that arise...
but... as i stood beside him...
i saw his hand tremble.
and as i stood behind him, looking at how he tries to tie up the ends to this accident...
i realised how old he is.
accidents happen everywhere...
u never know when ur safe and when u might just lose your life.
i don't know how he feels now... whether he's still traumatised... whether he blames himself for what that happened...
no matter what... i juz hope he knows... that... i'll be there for him....
it was so traumatising that even i was not involved in it, i felt so scared until i could cry when i saw how the car was dented... and how traumatised my father's collegues were... until they couldn't move... blah blah blah... but my dad made everything sound as though it's nothing serious at all. so that others wun be worried about him...
i want to be like you... to become someone others can depend on. instead of simply breaking down when something devastating happens unexpected...
so... if i can have a wish now... pls bless all those around me... and protect them from all the terrible things that might happen...
ps. in the end i'm back to being posted to sales after another big discussion teena had wif the HR pple... life is like shit now, but at least i'm glad that my dad's alive... with no injuries... and that i'm alive... and... i still have my family and close friends... =)
after all the things that happened today...
i guess... i'm glad that i'm still alive... and that my family is around me... and... i've got so many friends who care about me...
my... dad... was involved in a car crash.
he was going to fetch me from my workplace to go for tuition...
and just as he reached the road a few metres away from my company... a huge truck rammed into the left of my dad's car.
on board... there were three of my dad's collegues... and they had minor injuries.. luckily... and fortunately... my dad wasn't hurt... juz... dazed...
he said he's ok... he called the insurance company... called up the pple to tow the car away... called for the ambulance, called the police... and even called home... and assured my family that he's ok...
he seemed so calm... knowing what to do in whatever situation that arise...
but... as i stood beside him...
i saw his hand tremble.
and as i stood behind him, looking at how he tries to tie up the ends to this accident...
i realised how old he is.
accidents happen everywhere...
u never know when ur safe and when u might just lose your life.
i don't know how he feels now... whether he's still traumatised... whether he blames himself for what that happened...
no matter what... i juz hope he knows... that... i'll be there for him....
it was so traumatising that even i was not involved in it, i felt so scared until i could cry when i saw how the car was dented... and how traumatised my father's collegues were... until they couldn't move... blah blah blah... but my dad made everything sound as though it's nothing serious at all. so that others wun be worried about him...
i want to be like you... to become someone others can depend on. instead of simply breaking down when something devastating happens unexpected...
so... if i can have a wish now... pls bless all those around me... and protect them from all the terrible things that might happen...
ps. in the end i'm back to being posted to sales after another big discussion teena had wif the HR pple... life is like shit now, but at least i'm glad that my dad's alive... with no injuries... and that i'm alive... and... i still have my family and close friends... =)
back in office, all alone eating lunch as usual
and thinking abt the things that has juz happened in the morning...
juz within an hour... i've been posted to another department, and then transferred back to where i was initially...
and they said they're going to give my collegue more time to adapt, or else it's unfair to him... the next moment they changed their mind.
and there's nothing i can do about all these that's going on... i'm juz like... a pawn...
i muz admit... initially when i found out i'm going to be posted to sales cos the person i'm taking over, esther, is back, and that there's the new guy john who has been here for abt 1 month already... so basically our department here no longer need me the temp stuff to do all the filing and stuff... it's a practical solution to post me elsewhere...
but juz a few days ago teena told me secretly that cos john is a slow learner and doesn't exhibit a sense of responsibility required for his job scope, she's thinking of observing his performance up till friday to decide whether she still wants him here or to... well.. to put it directly, ask him to leave for good...
i admitted to her frankly that... we can't look after someone who cannot even file papers in running order properly, or to remember what he has done simply an hour ago... and when we're working in such a fast paced environment, we simply can't be baby sitters for we have our own work to settle.
so today when she first told me that i'm going elsewhere and john's going to stay... i really felt... how should i say? cheated?
but she said... she wants to give him another chance... or else it's unfair to him...
and i thought... yeah... that makes sense...
somehow i'm a little envious of john... cos our department pple are so nice to give him so many chances to prove himself...
everybody in my office.... ching esther and john were told that i'll be posted elsewhere... and ching asked me to help him photostat some stuff... so i playfully told him... aey... ask me photostat stuff muz treat me leh. den he replied.. aiyah... tml tot ur last day den treat u... but now too bad... u go elsewhere... ha~ den i replied.. wah~ u wan me to leave so fast ar? lolz~
but... yeah... somehow in my heart.. i rather i leave the company than to be posted elsewhere.. ha~ *cos of the... ahems... bad record sales department has... i mean... the new staff they employ would leave like... at most 1month after they're employed. -_-*
then... teena came back after she went to look for our big boss... michimoto san... and she once again told me and esther secretly that i no need to go to sales on monday...
and i was like... huh?
she asked... er... u don't understand?
i replied... yah.. i get it...
and she turned back to do her work.
simple instruction like that.. i understand... what i don't understand is... why is it that one moment u can decide that you want to give someone else a chance, and then later change ur mind so quickly? i understand that she's in a difficult position also... she has to face her superior... and perhaps the idea of giving john another chance came from michimoto san... but... everything juz... din really make sense.. at least at that point in time.
and i felt... terrible... it seems as though... it's cos of me that john's going to lose his job.
reality is so harsh.
为什么单靠努力也未必能够成功？
为什么单靠喜欢还是不能在一起？
为什么世界是呢么残酷的？
我的心情一时无法平静下来。
and thinking abt the things that has juz happened in the morning...
juz within an hour... i've been posted to another department, and then transferred back to where i was initially...
and they said they're going to give my collegue more time to adapt, or else it's unfair to him... the next moment they changed their mind.
and there's nothing i can do about all these that's going on... i'm juz like... a pawn...
i muz admit... initially when i found out i'm going to be posted to sales cos the person i'm taking over, esther, is back, and that there's the new guy john who has been here for abt 1 month already... so basically our department here no longer need me the temp stuff to do all the filing and stuff... it's a practical solution to post me elsewhere...
but juz a few days ago teena told me secretly that cos john is a slow learner and doesn't exhibit a sense of responsibility required for his job scope, she's thinking of observing his performance up till friday to decide whether she still wants him here or to... well.. to put it directly, ask him to leave for good...
i admitted to her frankly that... we can't look after someone who cannot even file papers in running order properly, or to remember what he has done simply an hour ago... and when we're working in such a fast paced environment, we simply can't be baby sitters for we have our own work to settle.
so today when she first told me that i'm going elsewhere and john's going to stay... i really felt... how should i say? cheated?
but she said... she wants to give him another chance... or else it's unfair to him...
and i thought... yeah... that makes sense...
somehow i'm a little envious of john... cos our department pple are so nice to give him so many chances to prove himself...
everybody in my office.... ching esther and john were told that i'll be posted elsewhere... and ching asked me to help him photostat some stuff... so i playfully told him... aey... ask me photostat stuff muz treat me leh. den he replied.. aiyah... tml tot ur last day den treat u... but now too bad... u go elsewhere... ha~ den i replied.. wah~ u wan me to leave so fast ar? lolz~
but... yeah... somehow in my heart.. i rather i leave the company than to be posted elsewhere.. ha~ *cos of the... ahems... bad record sales department has... i mean... the new staff they employ would leave like... at most 1month after they're employed. -_-*
then... teena came back after she went to look for our big boss... michimoto san... and she once again told me and esther secretly that i no need to go to sales on monday...
and i was like... huh?
she asked... er... u don't understand?
i replied... yah.. i get it...
and she turned back to do her work.
simple instruction like that.. i understand... what i don't understand is... why is it that one moment u can decide that you want to give someone else a chance, and then later change ur mind so quickly? i understand that she's in a difficult position also... she has to face her superior... and perhaps the idea of giving john another chance came from michimoto san... but... everything juz... din really make sense.. at least at that point in time.
and i felt... terrible... it seems as though... it's cos of me that john's going to lose his job.
reality is so harsh.
为什么单靠努力也未必能够成功？
为什么单靠喜欢还是不能在一起？
为什么世界是呢么残酷的？
我的心情一时无法平静下来。
24 April 2005
sick sick sick.
sick sick sick.
it feels extremely lonely when u're sick.
especially when u no longer have school... and it feels as though no one in the world cares whether u're sick or not.
and u can't go out to bathe under the sun.
it's extremely tiring and exhausting.
slept two full days and it doesn't help.
that's when frustration comes in.
thought about loads of things when i'm drifting in and out of consciousness...
wondered if anyone would remember me if i died. *cos very sick mah.*
first group of pple would probably be my parents bah. my siblings most probably... and a few close friends like pansy... yuchun... maybe pple like junyi and kelvin... hahaz~
would u remember me?
but i guess ultimately that wun matter.. hahaz~
i'm really glad that yesterday when i chatted wif shianchi junyi weixiang weijie they all... they showed concern... =) gave me a bit more strength to fight wif my headache and fever... though this morning when i woke up it got worse... but at least i felt better last night...
even those i'm not close to... sometimes it makes me wonder if they're faking concern... but... at least faking concern is better than showing no concern at all bah.. i guess...
at least it beats pple who are so busy until they dun have time or they forget to show concern to those around them...
it's been these two days which i thought i'll really collapse... i almost did... almost fainted on friday... yesterday on the verge of collapsing... especially when i had tuition and my mum dragged me out to buy groceries wif her. -_- but oh well... i survived... barely.. lolz~
i really wanted to collapse... i mean... wad's the point of holding on when u cannot take it anymore? that's when shianchi called me... though it's cos she wanted to jio me to go class outing wif her, which i can't go cos of my condition... when i told her that i'm super sick... and she was like... "do take care ya?"
and juz as simple as that... a word of concern was enough to pull me from the depths of darkness to juz hang on...
so... no matter how busy u are with your own personal life... juz sparing others a second to show them some concern... it brightens their day and gives them the strength to hang on...
so after two days of sleep plus popping numerous panadols... gushing pails of water and rushing to the toilet many times these four days...
i'm glad to announce.. that i'm still alive and kicking. -_-
finally understand how it felt to be totally exhausted... and how when u're in that state u wouldn't want to talk to anybody from the rest of the world.. and u simply want to stay with your bed and not part with it at all...
before i fell sick... i saw a glimpse of light... but when i fell sick... i was once again engulfed in darkness... but now that my mind has cleared... the darkness remained... and i wonder if i'll see the light again. the light of enlightenment...
but for now... recharging my body shall be the top piriority... XD
*starts eating a pack of chips*
it feels extremely lonely when u're sick.
especially when u no longer have school... and it feels as though no one in the world cares whether u're sick or not.
and u can't go out to bathe under the sun.
it's extremely tiring and exhausting.
slept two full days and it doesn't help.
that's when frustration comes in.
thought about loads of things when i'm drifting in and out of consciousness...
wondered if anyone would remember me if i died. *cos very sick mah.*
first group of pple would probably be my parents bah. my siblings most probably... and a few close friends like pansy... yuchun... maybe pple like junyi and kelvin... hahaz~
would u remember me?
but i guess ultimately that wun matter.. hahaz~
i'm really glad that yesterday when i chatted wif shianchi junyi weixiang weijie they all... they showed concern... =) gave me a bit more strength to fight wif my headache and fever... though this morning when i woke up it got worse... but at least i felt better last night...
even those i'm not close to... sometimes it makes me wonder if they're faking concern... but... at least faking concern is better than showing no concern at all bah.. i guess...
at least it beats pple who are so busy until they dun have time or they forget to show concern to those around them...
it's been these two days which i thought i'll really collapse... i almost did... almost fainted on friday... yesterday on the verge of collapsing... especially when i had tuition and my mum dragged me out to buy groceries wif her. -_- but oh well... i survived... barely.. lolz~
i really wanted to collapse... i mean... wad's the point of holding on when u cannot take it anymore? that's when shianchi called me... though it's cos she wanted to jio me to go class outing wif her, which i can't go cos of my condition... when i told her that i'm super sick... and she was like... "do take care ya?"
and juz as simple as that... a word of concern was enough to pull me from the depths of darkness to juz hang on...
so... no matter how busy u are with your own personal life... juz sparing others a second to show them some concern... it brightens their day and gives them the strength to hang on...
so after two days of sleep plus popping numerous panadols... gushing pails of water and rushing to the toilet many times these four days...
i'm glad to announce.. that i'm still alive and kicking. -_-
finally understand how it felt to be totally exhausted... and how when u're in that state u wouldn't want to talk to anybody from the rest of the world.. and u simply want to stay with your bed and not part with it at all...
before i fell sick... i saw a glimpse of light... but when i fell sick... i was once again engulfed in darkness... but now that my mind has cleared... the darkness remained... and i wonder if i'll see the light again. the light of enlightenment...
but for now... recharging my body shall be the top piriority... XD
*starts eating a pack of chips*
22 April 2005
it's been only a day... nah.. even lesser than that...
and it's amazing how the human mood can change so drastically
i wish i have a pillar of support for me to hold onto now.
especially when the world seems to be circling ard me...
making me feel totally helpless and...
*giddy*
*world turned black*
and it's amazing how the human mood can change so drastically
i wish i have a pillar of support for me to hold onto now.
especially when the world seems to be circling ard me...
making me feel totally helpless and...
*giddy*
*world turned black*
~the day when i fell sick~
20 April 2005
imagine a 女强人 walking along the streets of shenton... dressed in a powersuit, with... perhaps.. her long hair tied up in a sleek ponytail... carrying her black leather bag, in... a pair of... high heels....
so todae i took one step nearer towards my goal of becoming a 女强人...
by wearing the much dreaded heels.
oh well... it's juz cos my usual flat bottom pair of shoes has decided that it has enuff of me... the deco on the shoe is almost dropping off...
and i made the silly decision of wearing my sis' high heels for todae so that i can fix my shoe back properly.
and gosh. i was running late for my company bus...
dragging my feet wif the heels.. i try to walk at high speed *which obviously isn't very fast cos it's the first time i'm wearing heels for work*
court shoes would probably be a better choice. =S with not so high heels. -_-
when i walked halfway to my pickup point for my bus... in the heart of bukit batok central... at ard 7.28am...
a girl in pink top, white skirt wif blue flowers, in a brown jacket, with loads of barang barang... juz fell down all of a sudden...
with the heel of her left shoe thrown somewhat 20 metres ahead of her.
that's it man.... first miss company bus... next spoil someone else's shoe *that's like the third time in the year. =S* and most importantly, INCREASED the girl's hatred towards wearing heels...
so after a short discussion with her mum, the girl decided to forfeit her work todae and go home... HAHAHAHAHA~
which explains y someone is unexpectedly at home at such... unusual hours... ha~ typing blog somemore...
oh well... at most... from now onwards, we can change our impression of 女强人 to someone wearing a powersuit, with long hair tied into a sleek ponytail, carrying her black leather bag, waering... erms... a pair of flat bottom shoes? sandals? slippers?
*disclaimer : if u are one of the "lucky" few who saw the girl in pink top, white skirt wif blue flowers, in brown jacket, with loads of barang barang, who fell down at bb central at ard that time, that girl's definitely not me. really... believe me.*
so todae i took one step nearer towards my goal of becoming a 女强人...
by wearing the much dreaded heels.
oh well... it's juz cos my usual flat bottom pair of shoes has decided that it has enuff of me... the deco on the shoe is almost dropping off...
and i made the silly decision of wearing my sis' high heels for todae so that i can fix my shoe back properly.
and gosh. i was running late for my company bus...
dragging my feet wif the heels.. i try to walk at high speed *which obviously isn't very fast cos it's the first time i'm wearing heels for work*
court shoes would probably be a better choice. =S with not so high heels. -_-
when i walked halfway to my pickup point for my bus... in the heart of bukit batok central... at ard 7.28am...
a girl in pink top, white skirt wif blue flowers, in a brown jacket, with loads of barang barang... juz fell down all of a sudden...
with the heel of her left shoe thrown somewhat 20 metres ahead of her.
that's it man.... first miss company bus... next spoil someone else's shoe *that's like the third time in the year. =S* and most importantly, INCREASED the girl's hatred towards wearing heels...
so after a short discussion with her mum, the girl decided to forfeit her work todae and go home... HAHAHAHAHA~
which explains y someone is unexpectedly at home at such... unusual hours... ha~ typing blog somemore...
oh well... at most... from now onwards, we can change our impression of 女强人 to someone wearing a powersuit, with long hair tied into a sleek ponytail, carrying her black leather bag, waering... erms... a pair of flat bottom shoes? sandals? slippers?
*disclaimer : if u are one of the "lucky" few who saw the girl in pink top, white skirt wif blue flowers, in brown jacket, with loads of barang barang, who fell down at bb central at ard that time, that girl's definitely not me. really... believe me.*
18 April 2005
it's been a long time since i've last updated here...
nothing much for me to say... juz that... i'm still alive and kicking...
though barely... ha~
oh well.. wad better things could be happening to me now? juz that insomnia strikes back again. it's kinda irritating cos u know u have loads of things to tackle the next day but ur mind is juz filled with loads of thoughts and u juz can't let go and drift to dreamland. oh wait, i'll rather not have any dreams.
lunch break at my company now. it sux cos i'm eating alone in the office, and my boss is having pms. bossing pple ard, and i'm not in a good mood to tackle her bossy-ness todae cos i juz din have any sleep last night... but who cares, not like she cares... and maybe i don't care as well... hahaz~
oh well... that's the tired sotong for ya, folks... hahaz~
horoscope says todae that i've got five stars for love and romance, four stars for work, and three stars for finanace... oh well... somehow i dun believe it now... hahaz~ furnie siaz~ to think that i believed so much in horoscope, tarot cards and stuff for the past week... guess it's been the only things supporting me for the past week... to prevent me from collapsing from all sorts of things happening...
nothing really matters now i guess. juz... maybe... sleep.. hahaz~ and maybe earning more money....
too many thoughts in my mind the past week... not intending to bore or bother pple wif them. cos it's either they dun care, or they wun understand, or it doesn't concern them or even cos i dun see the need for them to understand. and not forgetting that it'll simply waste their time trying to listen to my woes.
all of a sudden i sound so yuchun-ish... hahaz~ *winkz at yuchun*
i juz bought the FIR cd at the expense of my cyndi cd... lolz~ guess u'll have to sacrifice some things to gain other things... hahaz~ principle of equivalent trade... something which i realised... quite long ago... no regrets anyway... cos it's a darn nice cd... =) but of course, i feel personally that this cd is more... "dark" than their first cd... loads of depressing songs... u most prob will think... aiyah... these songs nothing much one lar... but as u listen on u'll realise that there's more to that simple music...
which is y i'm crazy over the cd now.. hahaz~
and junyi! dun come rubbing in my wounds saying that u have dvd player *which i obviously dun* and that i shall give u my dvd from the FIR cd to u... hahaz~
oh well.. i was joking upstairs... =Pp
sighz. let's juz hope that my bossy boss wun ask me to stay back for OT again. like she always does whenever i dun have tuition. -_-
i wan sleep... ... ...
nothing much for me to say... juz that... i'm still alive and kicking...
though barely... ha~
oh well.. wad better things could be happening to me now? juz that insomnia strikes back again. it's kinda irritating cos u know u have loads of things to tackle the next day but ur mind is juz filled with loads of thoughts and u juz can't let go and drift to dreamland. oh wait, i'll rather not have any dreams.
lunch break at my company now. it sux cos i'm eating alone in the office, and my boss is having pms. bossing pple ard, and i'm not in a good mood to tackle her bossy-ness todae cos i juz din have any sleep last night... but who cares, not like she cares... and maybe i don't care as well... hahaz~
oh well... that's the tired sotong for ya, folks... hahaz~
horoscope says todae that i've got five stars for love and romance, four stars for work, and three stars for finanace... oh well... somehow i dun believe it now... hahaz~ furnie siaz~ to think that i believed so much in horoscope, tarot cards and stuff for the past week... guess it's been the only things supporting me for the past week... to prevent me from collapsing from all sorts of things happening...
nothing really matters now i guess. juz... maybe... sleep.. hahaz~ and maybe earning more money....
too many thoughts in my mind the past week... not intending to bore or bother pple wif them. cos it's either they dun care, or they wun understand, or it doesn't concern them or even cos i dun see the need for them to understand. and not forgetting that it'll simply waste their time trying to listen to my woes.
all of a sudden i sound so yuchun-ish... hahaz~ *winkz at yuchun*
i juz bought the FIR cd at the expense of my cyndi cd... lolz~ guess u'll have to sacrifice some things to gain other things... hahaz~ principle of equivalent trade... something which i realised... quite long ago... no regrets anyway... cos it's a darn nice cd... =) but of course, i feel personally that this cd is more... "dark" than their first cd... loads of depressing songs... u most prob will think... aiyah... these songs nothing much one lar... but as u listen on u'll realise that there's more to that simple music...
which is y i'm crazy over the cd now.. hahaz~
and junyi! dun come rubbing in my wounds saying that u have dvd player *which i obviously dun* and that i shall give u my dvd from the FIR cd to u... hahaz~
oh well.. i was joking upstairs... =Pp
sighz. let's juz hope that my bossy boss wun ask me to stay back for OT again. like she always does whenever i dun have tuition. -_-
i wan sleep... ... ...
13 April 2005
09 April 2005
04 April 2005
回家路上我看到天上繁星。。。
想到我们都在同个星空下。。。
大家都在寻找同样的东西。。。
但偏偏一个人拥有时，
另一个人是无法得到他想得到的东西。。。
为了得到那样东西。。。
人人开始勾心斗角，互相伤害。。。
是否曾想过，想得到的东西并不能靠蛮力得到呢？
为了追求心里所要的，所以你有了这些举动。
你是对的。
但。。。我就是错的吗？
虽然我无法像你一样体会你的感受，
我还是能明白你的心情。。。
我们最初追求的是什么？而现在追求的又是什么？
这两者是否相同？
这场星球大战究竟要打到什么时候？
为了达到目的，一个人可不惜一切，
忘了自我，拼命伤害人。。。
但是。。。在让别人心痛的当而，
那个人的心不会痛吗？
是否有想保护一个人的念头呢？
而当你发现你根本没有能力保护他，
这种沮丧。。。有人能明白吗？
只能说声。。。对不起。。。
或许，唯一能庆幸的是。。。
他根本就不需要你的保护吧。。。
哈哈~
托我家人与好友的福，最近我好多了。。。
谢谢你们。。。 =) 你们对我这么好。。。
我真的不知如何报答你们。。。哈哈~
我想我唯一能做的就是好好的活下去，
不要让你们对我的期望落空。。。还有。。。
不管面对到什么挫折都要用一张笑脸去面对。。。
不论伤害多么深，不论过程多么苦，我想，
唯有这样，我才能真正体会到人生的酸甜苦辣。。。
或许我得学习学习草或竹的精神。。。
要像它们一样的柔中带刚。。。
虽然我觉得这始终不会发生。。。
但我还是相信。。。
如果一个人感到内疚，
他人要的并不是对不起，
而是那个人用行动来证明。。。
想到我们都在同个星空下。。。
大家都在寻找同样的东西。。。
但偏偏一个人拥有时，
另一个人是无法得到他想得到的东西。。。
为了得到那样东西。。。
人人开始勾心斗角，互相伤害。。。
是否曾想过，想得到的东西并不能靠蛮力得到呢？
为了追求心里所要的，所以你有了这些举动。
你是对的。
但。。。我就是错的吗？
虽然我无法像你一样体会你的感受，
我还是能明白你的心情。。。
我们最初追求的是什么？而现在追求的又是什么？
这两者是否相同？
这场星球大战究竟要打到什么时候？
为了达到目的，一个人可不惜一切，
忘了自我，拼命伤害人。。。
但是。。。在让别人心痛的当而，
那个人的心不会痛吗？
是否有想保护一个人的念头呢？
而当你发现你根本没有能力保护他，
这种沮丧。。。有人能明白吗？
只能说声。。。对不起。。。
或许，唯一能庆幸的是。。。
他根本就不需要你的保护吧。。。
哈哈~
托我家人与好友的福，最近我好多了。。。
谢谢你们。。。 =) 你们对我这么好。。。
我真的不知如何报答你们。。。哈哈~
我想我唯一能做的就是好好的活下去，
不要让你们对我的期望落空。。。还有。。。
不管面对到什么挫折都要用一张笑脸去面对。。。
不论伤害多么深，不论过程多么苦，我想，
唯有这样，我才能真正体会到人生的酸甜苦辣。。。
或许我得学习学习草或竹的精神。。。
要像它们一样的柔中带刚。。。
虽然我觉得这始终不会发生。。。
但我还是相信。。。
如果一个人感到内疚，
他人要的并不是对不起，
而是那个人用行动来证明。。。
01 April 2005
~ 恋上我的影子 ~
我爱上了一个人。
他是个沉默寡言的人。
他从不计较我的缺点，
也不在乎我对他的大呼小叫。
当我需要他时，他都会悄悄陪在我身边。
当我心烦意躁，他便让我独自解开心结。
当我快乐时，他就静静地站在我后头享受我的喜悦。
当我难过时，他就默默地守在我身旁抚慰我的创伤。
不论我想要做什么，他都从不拒绝我的要求。
即使伤害了他，他也不会因此而爱我少一些。
他会永远永远的陪在我的身旁。
不论生老病死都不会舍我而去。
虽然我听不到他的声音，也感觉不到他的温度。。。
但。。。这种滋味还是温暖的。。。嘻嘻~
他是个沉默寡言的人。
他从不计较我的缺点，
也不在乎我对他的大呼小叫。
当我需要他时，他都会悄悄陪在我身边。
当我心烦意躁，他便让我独自解开心结。
当我快乐时，他就静静地站在我后头享受我的喜悦。
当我难过时，他就默默地守在我身旁抚慰我的创伤。
不论我想要做什么，他都从不拒绝我的要求。
即使伤害了他，他也不会因此而爱我少一些。
他会永远永远的陪在我的身旁。
不论生老病死都不会舍我而去。
虽然我听不到他的声音，也感觉不到他的温度。。。
但。。。这种滋味还是温暖的。。。嘻嘻~
~ 恋上我的影子 ~
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