Of Smiles and Sunshine

"what is it that you want? and.... does your actions reflect and move you towards what you want to achieve?"

had a dream last nite.... it wasn't a nightmare... but neither was it... a really happy happy dream... it was... nice.

but since dreams usually dun materialise in real life... does it mean that it is the total opposite of reality?

1 day before gp... feeling really really tireds. be it physically or emotionally.

and the thought of the end of a levels at the end of the month simply makes me... feel... lost.

the end is coming near... there's nothing you can do to stop it but to simply absorb the impact and go with the flow...

beginning to understand.... beginning to accept that there's no way to avoid... is this a new form of depression? or is it simply apathy? apathy to the world?...

so many things floating in my mind...

constantly questioning myself... what am i doing.... why am i doing it... am i imposing too much on others... who am i in the first place... am i up to it? can i really help people? can i score well for a levels?

i dunno... maybe this is pre a levels syndrome. -_-'''
i wanna ease your pain... but am i up to it?