Of Smiles and Sunshine

it feels so empty.
it's like i'm talking to people now... but why does it still feel empty inside?
all meaningless talk... though it's not like i don't like those that's talking to me now...
but still...


多希望能把心挖出来。
这样就不会有任何感觉。
有时会问自己，干吗要做这种事？
我的尊严在哪里？
可是回过头来，
我究竟放得下吗？
舍得放下吗？
或许我需要多一点时间好好想一想
最重要的或许不只是别人的快乐。
或许我也得维持自己活着的尊严。



had another tiring day at work... i never thought people could be so unfriendly when it deals with their livelihood... heard people quarreling over their overdue pay... though i understand the procedure accounts side have to undergo before they can release payment to the workers, but sometimes the workers really need the money desperately...

i know all these, but i'm still stunned at the way people argue to get their way...

maybe i just need to harden myself more and be tougher to this kind of hostility bahs.