Of Smiles and Sunshine

is it ok for me to feel so happy and blessed?

i don't know why... i feel kind of insecure sometimes when people are nice to me... because i don't know whether it's an illusion or not... whether they'll forget about being nice to me the next moment... but i suppose all these fears are just me thinking too much on my part? i don't know...

i'm scared i'll get the wrong impression sometimes haha!

paper today turned out ok except for yet another stunt from the examiners... they tested on a question everybody thought would not appear in the paper, so no one studied. and it's not something that can be derived... it's pure memory stuff imo... siandeds. but that's 8 marks... i pray i can get at least half of it haha~

considering i didn't get to sleep properly last night *or more accurately, i didn't sleep at all, i just lie down on my bed...* i'm kind of pleased that i didn't fall asleep during the paper! but once after the paper i became a zombie... was printing my 1 semester's worth of notes for my paper on mon... went for lunch with the ntu clique... lunch was quite fun but would have been more enjoyable if i have had enough sleep earlier on... they were talking about their obs and kayaking experiences... but strangely, i couldn't think nor recall these experiences... maybe it's cos i was too tired, maybe it's cos i didn't remember at all. i don't know... but if i can, i wish i can go obs again, though i am the kind of person who doesn't have the strength and stamina to persevere the tough obstacles and things that they do, but after those activities i always feel i emerge stronger in the mind and character...

and once i reached home, i had a long 3 hr nap...

and i feel like continuing to catch up on sleep right now... yawns.

haha then i shall leave my thoughts till the next time... =)