Of Smiles and Sunshine

i just woke up from a nightmare... i would classify it as my nightmare because it kinda reflects my inner fears...

i dreamt that someone proposed to me and i happily accepted. but at the wedding it was disrupted by my relatives who tried to kill me and my "future" husband... by stealing our wedding rings which would protect us from harm *ok it has special powers* and by hiding one of my kids *yes i dreamt i had 2 kids before i got married. omg*... we snatched back our rings and looked for my kid who was hidden in a cupboard... the poor kid... and then later when everything was resolved i was in a party with my family... everybody was dressed up really pretty and handsome-ly... and then my dad revealed that he's going to die... i was so stunned that i started tearing right away... but my mother added that he's going to die from eating all the room service cos he'll be flying to some faraway place again. but even when this was revealed as a joke... i was quite frightened by that joke and even noticed my father was packing some really weird stuff into his luggage as though he's going somewhere far away and never coming back...

i don't know why i feel so stunned even after i woke up. everything felt so real that i'm afraid my dream wasn't just a dream but it might become reality. of course i'm not trying to curse my family or anything, but i'm scared that when i go shanghai far away from them, something might happen without my knowing... that's y it's a nightmare and even after i wake up, i can't smile and laugh at the stupidity of me having 2 kids before i marry.