Of Smiles and Sunshine

rawr. ohayo ne. gakkou ni iru. koko no kompyuuta wa totemo yokunai, nihon go no inpuuto ga nai kara. rawrs. *ok the rawring part is not japanese =(*

loads of thoughts in my head that i can't get rid of... it's kinda irritating cos it makes me think about it even when i'm trying to do my tutorials in school now. japanese then analog electronics. not a good combination. add in the lack of sleep. and my crave for... hot steaming chicken porridge? ok just take it i'm crazy.

thinking about friendship and love. again hahaha. yesterday i felt a little bad, cos one of my friends from japanese class... the guy she liked is attatched... haha that sounds a little nostalgic... remembering the days i once had... so i can understand how she feels... but i'm not really close to her considering i only knew her from jap class this semester... although i tried to talk to her to make her cheer up a little... i can't tell whether it's just her being tired from school that day, or it's because of that... once we stop talking she looked sad... and i couldn't help at all... i've met with similar situations before, but each time i feel being unable to help my friend i'll get mad at my incompetence though i knew deep down there's nothing wrong and nothing i can do to change that... rawr.

thinking about pico again. lmao. i think i've gone pico-crazy.... even my handphone wallpaper is a cute picture of her... =) looking at her makes me smile. omg it's like she's my child liddat lmao...

motivation motivation motivation. lately i've been thinking... what if the reason that had been propelling you to do something in the past is no longer there? would you still persist in what u're doing or just give up the whole matter and pursue something else? it's like me doing eee in ntu now... at the beginning i thought i had the passion for it... which i did i suppose... now i'm lost as to where to go next... because the propelling reason is now gone... why am i even in ntu? i admit it's fun to play with the breadboards here and write computer programs for computing and microprocessor lessons... but comparing it to life in nus.... i suppose it should be around the same? then why am i in ntu instead of nus when i can go to both schools anyway... the deciding factor for me to come to ntu is gone anyway...

living in a world without you. the future i once predicted had you. but now u're not there. my future would be without you too. how do i deviate my current life into such a future? if i see u again next time, how will things be like? so many questions but no answers to them...

i suppose this might just mean i'm too free to ponder about all these questions. means i'm not stressed enough. 2+ weeks more to exams! 30+ tutorials to clear! loads of notes to memorise especially for electives! ok i feel the stress already... time to head back to the "wonderful" world of op-amps and analog electronics. bleh.