Of Smiles and Sunshine

all man has sins.
god is forgiving and forgives man's sins.
but i am not god.
i'm not as forgiving as him.
i can forgive all except mine.

another restless night. having a slight headache from lack of sleep from previous night... wondering how i'll spend my weekend on pri school class outing, looking for bdae present and how to finish studying and try to catch up on schoolwork. not as busy as probably su weixiang... whom i've talked to just now... guess we're all busy with our own lives... hard to find time to catch up with friends whom we don't meet as well...

you really should let go... he was the one who wanted to leave from your sight to seek his own happiness. and when it seems he doesn't find that... it's not your fault at all. it has got nothing to do with you in the first place. repeat that in your mind 1000 times.

having a little bit of... erms... constipation? body not feeling really good... on the verge of falling sick perhaps... irregular eating times, not enough sleep, not eating good and i wanna try reduce my weight. *yar yar... 50 by may...* i survived another day without incurring bruises to myself! though there were several things that happened that might have bruised me... like tripping over the stairs, my toe with the nail chipped off stepped by a stranger on the crowded bus etc. i'm still alive. is that supposed to be a "yatta!" or a "oh shit"?

i wonder... if i meet you again in school... how would we react to each other's presence? say hi like normal friends? or pretend we didn't see each other. or even pretend we don't know each other. all is wrong in the first place.

i don't understand why i'm so stubborn about this whole thing.

yeah. time to make it all disappear.