Of Smiles and Sunshine

should i? should i not?

sometimes i really wonder if the things i do are right... even though i'm clear personally that there are no such things as an absolute right or wrong...

wad if the things u wanna do would end up hurting others? is that action right? or issit wrong?

how i wish that things are more clear cut... sighz~

i'm afraid.... afraid of hurting others... but it seems that... wadeva i do... someone will get hurt in the end... i really wish that the person who's hurt is not u... but i realised... due to my insensitive nature... i always end up hurting others...

if i had been more tolerant... maybe these things wun have happened...




read weijie's card to me when i reached home yesterday... i'm really flattered by wad u say and think of me... but perhaps... u dun see the true ugly side of me... which i realised when i was in sec one and had been trying to change... but i guess... the leopard cannot change it's spots.... juz like how the sotong cannot change the colour of it's black ink...

went out to play mahjong todae... at eric's house... won the least down there since nico came... hahaz.. budden.... it was a good game... i kept pong-ing sai... *west*... and the guys keep saying that i like to eat shit... lolz~

but i guess.... for wadeva happiness u receive... there would be losses... like.. i feel that i'm neglecting my family... these few days my relatives came... i'm always out, never talk to them and stuff... first it was prom... den todae went out to play mahjong whole day... den come back... they're gone... gone back to malaysia le.. all of a sudden felt guilty for not being a good host, a good daughter... blah blah blah... sighz... see? so immatured...

second new year resolution... be more sensible and matured... and be more responsible...

when i came home... i asked my mum... where's my brother... and she replied... 你几时关心过你弟弟？initially i juz din think too much abt that comment.. budden my father shot in... 她会这样问就是在关心了吗... i'm grateful to my dad for speaking up for me here... budden... now that he said this... it reminded me of... the things which happened at a levels which i shan't elaborate anymore..

i miss those days when i'm juz living in an ideal world... where all gases behave according to the ideal gas equation... hahaz.. dotz...

或许，有些东西，不论你想怎么隐藏都隐藏不了。