raining.. and raining.. and rain continues to fall..

suddenly, the tune of 白月光 juz keeps ringing in my mind. dunno y oso. hahaz. maybe it's a reflection of my mood now? hahaz.

it's raining again. raining cats and dogs...

for a while. i thought i could forget. guess i was wrong again. as usual. hahaz...

yesterday... had a dream... dreamt i was in this dark dungeon all by myself... i was a mage... fighting in darkness.... and accidentally stumbled across this place with... loads of monsters which seem to never stop coming and charging at me... finally managed to break through these monsters.... and defeat all of them... den i saw this dark place leading deeper into this dungeon... and downstairs seem to have more monsters... ventured further... accidentally dropped to this place which is like a wheel... and i'm standing on the top of it... with... this eye... on the wheel thingy... looked really scary... especially when it's staring at u, and u can't go back to where u came from.... bo bian, had to go further down to look for a way to get out... couldn't move.... so the wheel juz started turning and i was stuck to the wheel... and after dropping onto two other wheels.. i finally dropped to a place... where i further walked on... and found... light.. and some pple who were there... whom i had no idea who they are... and one was like... forcing me to go down this flight of stairs into further darkness, while there were two more guys sitting at a round table.. den i went up to one guy to ask him where that place is... and that guy keep blabbering as though he has some verbal diarrhoea... all of a sudden, i felt so scared... cos... i dunno where i am... dunno how to get out.... felt so lost.. even though i was with... those two guys sitting round the table.. come to think of it, i din feel so lonely when i was alone, beseiged by all those enemies... hahaz... i wonder why...

woke up from that dream... feeling.... a little lost bah. felt as though i couldn't wake up from that dream... perhaps... we would only know how it feels to be lonely only when we once had company... and it's because we know such feeling so well that we would want to seek company...

somehow... though i know it's a dream, i'm still kinda... shaken by it bah. especially the eyes part... dunno y... maybe it's cos whenever i look at someone, the first thing i'll notice is the eyes bah... so when i saw those eyes staring at me from the wheel... it juz freaks me out... somemore i saw 3 of them.. hahaz. silly girl. -_-'''

sighz. feeling.. strange now... trying to forget, but, the memories juz... kept coming back today... maybe it's juz me... trying not to forget in my subconscious... sighz.

is this... being something dangerous for me? cos... the more i try to forget, the more it comes back to me... and.. perhaps... i might choose to leave with the wind... hahaz. no... of course that wun happen.... as long as i'm firm enough. but... wad if? hahaz. -_-'''

sighz. feeling better after my verbal diarrhoea... speaking of diarrhoea... i had a rather bad stomachache this morning.. hahaz... dots.. no link.... but... well... sighz. maths paper!!! drats... lucky i din do pure stats or mech... or else i think i'll die pretty pretty. sighz. budden... i feel that my maths are starting to deprove... no... should be it's deproving like siao. sians. and somemore got physics paper tomoloz... wah!!! :'( sighz. hope prelims can end soon... .. ..