fear.

wanted to write this entry for quite a few days le...finally todae... can sort of sit down and start typing... hahaz..

so many uncertainties... so many questions which had been left unanswered... and so many... changes to the world we live in.... leading us to question whatever answer which had been given to us previously...

and to face all these questions and uncertainties... it's no mean feat.

somehow... fear... might simply accelerate and overtake u no matter how u might have told urself to remain composed in times of this.

afraid that something unexpected would happen again. but then again, since when have our lives been so every predictable?

life is never predictable. sadly... hahaz.

but it's because of such uncertainty which made life even more beautiful.

there are some things which i would love to... seek a... probably... different answer than the one which had been given to me beforehand... somehow... juz had the desire to change whatever ending u call it... and perhaps, in the time i've left now.... i could seek that change i hope for...

and then again. some things are better left alone.

juz had a... rather... unexpected encounter bah... all thanks to my "inquisitive" nature... -_-''' well.. others might not have viewed it as being unexpected... guess this is probably subjective bah. when things juz simply seem to spiral out of ur control... although everything seems fine on the surface, and u seem to have reached a conclusion to that event.... there is still a slight possibility of a sudden change... which might catch one off guard... perhaps that's wad i fear... fear the unknown.... but... since it's unknown... y fear? hahaz. i'm simply contradicting myself.
-_-

even the prelims... i have such a... premonition that i wun do well.... juz a feeling.. but it's kinda scary bah.. hahaz... *actually such things no need to have premonition... juz look at the number of hours i spend online... hahaz. u get the picture... ;P* oh well. guess i'll juz have to try my luck bah... let nature take it's course.. hahaz.

omg. i think i'm starting to sound like someone. or maybe it's that person hu's trying to sound like me. wad am i talking abt. -_-

*wad u are observing now is a rather common phenomena which occurs to patients who are subjected to huge amounts of stress due to a pile of papers.*

sighz. how i wish i've got the power to control change. wahahahaz. fat hope.