Of Smiles and Sunshine

sometimes i wonder whether there's a way for me to drastically increase my EQ... according to a certain individual, the fastest way is to keep socializing and keep exposing urself to all kinds of social situations... which would be painful for me cos socializing is a pretty tiring task for me... but i suppose no pain, no gain... and now the question will be... how will i attempt to expose myself to more of these social circumstances...

thanks for everything today!
u're right, you can't be by my side 24hrs a day.
i really should seize this time to learn to be independent.
i understand the pain u're going through.
despite how i kinda hate myself for turning you down the other time...
maybe i really did have the foresight.
afterall those who start to claim they've recovered from emotional wounds usually haven't fully healed yet, the next moment a simple incident could just blow away ur recovery efforts.
(speaking from past experience haha!)
the only thing i can do for you is to let you sort out your thoughts
to stay by your side and show up beside you when you need me.
i'm sorry for the selfish thoughts and actions i have today...
pls forgive me ^^

i kinda hate myself for being selfish. today my HR manager bought me food just before he came back to office 1hr before i knocked off, hoping i would stay behind and do OT for his sake (especially when my other colleague took leave all of a sudden when payday is just around the corner) so many work issues to settle, and instead of agreeing to do OT, i refused. i wanted to meet up with my friend for dinner and i was... ahems. having a little bit of constipation with the erms... unwanted material stuck up my a** which simply refused to get out of my system despite my attempts to develop my humble and sincere feelings with the toilet bowl. so i just said i can't make it for OT today... and the HR manager replied... aiyah must be going to par tor... so i just kept quiet =X
ok lah he's right there...i suppose... ha!
oh well, i just have to work harder and chiong faster at work tml... eeks!

and i sincerely pray i wouldn't have to do OT tml... oh pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls pls psp psp psp psp psp psp psp psp psp psp... opps! lmao~ yah if i can i would love to have more time to spend with my 裴勇俊 and darling psp... ^^













and one last thing. thanks to kelvin for reminding me this...

+ ~ What to do? ~ +
> Have you lost your way? <
= When that happens... =
~* We each have to take a good look at our hearts... *~
+ ~ There's always something forgotten. ~ +
** Remember it. **
-=- Whatever it is... -=-
~ it must certainly be what you are looking for... ~
i promise...
whistle~ and i'll come running...













it's time to fulfil my forgotten promise(s)... =))

and thanks for reminding me something so precious in my heart that i have long forgotten in this 3 years... ^^