Of Smiles and Sunshine

so tireds...







played bball with my schoolmates in school today... saw two of them who played bball like 2 people who were rather important to me in the past. feelings of guilt swept past me as i recall about the things i've been through with them and yet i couldn't and cannot stay close to them now...

one of them... was my ex. strangely, my company mate plays in a style so similar to him that it's so unbelievable... haha~ i revisited my memories of my ex... but it stays there. it has to. no point dwelling over something that's over for so long... but still, a certain wave of sadness kind of overwhelmed me as i watched my companymate play...

the other... was a friend i turned my back on due to stupid reasons... the guy that i knew here in shanghai has the same initial as my friend, they have almost the same build, similar hairstyle, and they play bball in similar fashion! lol~ but then i felt guilty... over the stupid things i did in the past to my friend which made him so hurt... and i wasn't a good friend and i wasn't there for him when he needed me... now that he's out of the shit i left him in, it's practically impossible to go back to the way things were before... not that i'm upset or i really really want to go back to the things that it was previously, it's more like... a pity that things turned out this way...

alright! let's leave our sorrow and sadness here. stop thinking back about things u dun have control over! start thinking about what you can do to salvage/make things better!