Of Smiles and Sunshine

i miss those naive and innocent days.

these days time and events have polluted me so much until things i'd show concern to... i no longer want to or have the power to. like those people whom i was once close to... they've all moved on in their lives, and i didn't or couldn't keep in contact with them, so it makes showing concern a little weird and out of place. and then there were those whom... i can't really come to resolve the conflict within myself... those who hurt me... on purpose or unintentionally... sometimes i want to show concern but then i'll step back and ask myself. why do that? they hurt me last time...

it's really difficult to let go of the past isn't it.














就是因为受过伤，难过了那么久，所以更不想再受伤。
就是因为哭过，擦干泪后，再也不想失去笑容。
而笑容又是什么？不哭了，就是笑容吗？
我还有幸福的权利吗？那你呢？

不想在受到伤害，所以想武装自己。
用眼泪洗过了自己，想要强化软弱的心。
朋友与朋友之间，此时可能对你很好；
下一秒却可能利用你背叛你伤害你。
为了避免这些未知的伤，或许避开比较好。

静止的时间，是否已经开始移动？
曾溶解的心，是否又会再次冻结?

最后，我会忘记回忆，忘记珍惜。
不再懂得坚持，只懂得放弃。









好悲哀的一生。

我试图舍弃这些悲观的念头，但怎么也甩不掉。