Of Smiles and Sunshine

mayday! mayday!! mayday!!!

opps sorry i'm still pretty caught up with my mayday fever... so here's a few songs that keeps going on in repeat mode in my head...













超人
曲：冠佑/阿信 词：阿信

世界如果被残酷攻击 只要给我一个电话亭
把内裤当外衣 如果你能够开心 展开披风 带你飞行

谁赐予我这一身 无助的能力
神也不能阻挡 你想离开的心

为什么拯救地球 是那么容易
为什么束手无策啊 我和你的爱情
为什么我能飞天 也能够遁地
为什么我却没办法 长驱直入 你的心

曾经你赞美我手臂 逛街多能提 日日夜夜贴身保护你
最凶狠的怪兽 也不能与我为敌 那为何害怕你的泪滴

你给了我这一幕 难堪的结局
谁要这样超人 连自己也救不起

为什么拯救地球 是那么容易
为什么束手无策啊 我和你的爱情
为什么拯救地球 终于完美结局
为什么 我只能够 眼看着爱燃烧成 灰烬

世界如果被残酷攻击 谁来接手我的超能力













i keep coming face to face with problems i've seemed to solve, but nevertheless it is still inherent and silently bothering me... it has already been over for such a long time, yet i'm still pretty bothered by it... i never really knew where went wrong... could it be that the fault never truly lie with me? but i could never come to that conclusion within myself. i keep thinking i had some part to do with the outcome of events, and probably as a result, i could never let go of it fully.

the feeling of helplessness... of how i had totally no control over the events that happened between you and me... i could do any other things fine, just this. i'm no superman (or superwoman), i can't save the world, and i don't know if i have even the power to make a minute change in the world.... but i did believe there were things i could do... like helping those people around me, to try and bring happiness to those around me... until that happened, leaving my confidence totally shattered. i turned myself into a hermit... all for what? all for how i couldn't stop the flow of events...

and even now... things still didn't really change. no matter how hard i try, i guess i just couldn't do anything about this issue. someone thought he wasn't serious as i was, and totally couldn't be bothered with me now. was i wrong? was it something that i did? or was i too irritating? i don't know... yet others tell me i'm alright. the feeling of helplessness just kept rising as i continuously tried to suppress it...

why dwell on things that i have no control over? it's just a small event in life, in another 10 years or so i would probably be happily living in a world that has totally no connection with the things that happened. i've already wasted 3-5 years on this entire damn thing... why can't i just let go of it totally and never let it come back to bother me again?













i want myself back.