Of Smiles and Sunshine

i tried to go back to the cheerful and more helpful me.
i guess this just makes others more suspicious of my "motives".
if i were them i'll probably do that too.
so maybe it's better to stay cold and frozen in my own world.

joanne's going back to sg tomorrow (more accurately, it's today since it's past midnight)... a little envious of her though i could tell she doesn't really want to go back so early... i wonder if we'll remember each other after gip... but... like wad elton says, friendship's over after gip... although i dun want to think of it this way... but then again...

it's really strange. somehow there's this nudging feeling that i don't want to stay close to some of the people i know that i'm pretty close to at the moment, as though i wish the friendship contract would expire the moment gip ends...

nonononono! i dun wan things to go this way... one voice in my head tells me that, but then the darker side of me tells me otherwise...












should i shift my blog? haha i've asked myself this question upteenth times le bah! a while ago i was like scrutinizing some of my other friends who changed their blog address and i wasn't aware... i was like... why change blog address! to avoid other pple u dun wan to see? funny now i feel like doing this too... maybe i dun like the way others can see my thoughts so clearly bahs...

i think i'm a very simple and easy-to-figure-out person... (though there are people who somehow cannot tell what i'm exactly thinking... leaving me puzzled as to why haha!) so.. maybe it's safer to keep a distance to others bah...