issit right or wrong?

hmms... probably, when it comes to work, it doesn't pay to be helpful or full of initiative...

take todae at work for eg... i finished my stuff, pauline wasn't ard to assign me more tasks... so i turned around to ask alan *not allen... ha~ finally sorta confirm le.. :P* whether he needs help... so he asked me to help him write payment notice, put them in envelopes plus the respective cheques.... and after i finished that, he told me that i could help him write the cheques myself...

i admit that initially i had some reservations abt this... but i din question him whether it's appropriate.. afterall, it's juz like wad he said bah.... it's juz writing a cheque, nothing special abt it *probably cos he's been writing cheque like.. his whole life?* so i juz started my new task...

and guess wad? my superior joyce dropped by my office to look for alan.... and she saw me writing the cheque...

she din say a thing when i was writing...

next, she went up to her own office, rang up alan and told alan off for assigning me to write cheque.. next she rang up pauline to get her to assign me other stuff to do...

a little pissed abt this cos... if she din wan me to write the cheque *cos it's money involved* she could tell me straight in the face... but now she's "using me to tell other pple off" *quoted from chris, translated from chinese to eng* which makes me a little upset.... i'm oso partially at fault, but she din scold me at all... and tried to pretend that nothing happened, and that i din do anything wrong...

but i feel that i'm oso somewhat at fault...

i mean, if i haven't be so so so enthusiastic, alan wouldn't have asked me to write the cheque...

and it's all cos of my enthu-ness, and now pauline and alan are in trouble...

haiz~ horrible me... =S

so on my way home... chris who was on the same train as i was tried to explain to me how things work.... he said i am still young, so joyce couldn't scold me cos i dunno loads of stuff...

but... i mean.. so wad? age doesn't really matter when u're thrown out to the ocean to survive on ur own... similarly for working in the society...

but then again... i dun think i'll have felt better if joyce told me off straight in my face... =S

geez... i'm full of contradictions....

aniwae... todae... glad that chris' back to his happy cheery self... =)

and i'm quite glad that i managed to keep myself busy the whole day at the office...

and now i hope that pauline wouldn't be so stressed *though it can't be helped when her two bosses are breathing down her neck for reports, and there's me bugging her for work.. =S*

and for alan and chris to get well...

and for pauline not to fall sick...






for u to be doing well deep in the jungles....

and for u to be safe...






and for me to survive tomolo...