Of Smiles and Sunshine

woke up feeling depressed and probably a little suicidal. perhaps it's the weather. or the effect of constantly repeating the song lithium... or it's just me focusing on only problems and not the solutions.

i had a dream again yesterday night. can't remember the details. but it seems like someone i cared got together with another person which would have made me "kill" myself in the past. not literal, but maybe kill my soul bah. i wouldn't commit suicide this i promise myself and my family and those who cares =)

it's funny the power of music has on a soul. listening to depressing songs make me go into depression too... while those light hearted ones make me feel really relaxed and happy... but if i tell this to others they might probably just think i'm crazy... i mean, how can one let music control your emotions to such an extent?

yups so i must somehow learn to snap out of the trance of emotions when a song ends. it's ok to feel depressed while listening, but once the music stops, you should go back to your original state... lolx!

and then there's the question about how much one should talk about your problems. everybody has their own fair share of problems... it's really sweet if there's someone out there whom u can share all your problems with... but... is it necessary? to share ALL problems? i suppose not? because people can get quite sick of you if you just keep harping on your problems... and sometimes... i wonder if a problem for yourself can extend to becoming a problem for others, or even make the other party feel upset or hurt or something...

or maybe this is purely a problem of trust?

i like... but i don't know whether i love.