Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.
Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with my sorrow.
I'm gonna let it go.
this is the new song i'll be learning for my jam session this wed! omg i hope i can make it... i've gotta settle both the keyboard and vocal parts... which is like damn hard... haiz~ will go and search for the keyboard scores if they're available online... =S as much as i like to listen and come up with my own score... but I'VE GOT NO TIME!!! rawrs.
some background about this song... Lithium in this song is NOT the CHEMICAL ELEMENT. it's actually a mood stabilizing drug that is used to cure depression and particularly mania, according to dear wiki...
here's wad Amy Lee, the female vocal for Evanescence, says about this song... *taken from wikipedia*
It's sort of a metaphor about numbness and happiness and sort of like, it's me looking at happiness in a negative way because I've always been, you know, kind of afraid to be happy. Like with the band and the art and everything else, it's always like I'm never letting myself break through into the happiness it seems like, because it's not cool or something. And describing happiness is lithium, it's like saying 'that's numbness, I won't be able to be an artist anymore if I'm happy', which is hilarious because that's just not true, I'm happy. So it's like this fight within the song of like 'do I do this and get out of here and get happy or do I wallow in it like I always do?' and it's cool because at the end of the song I say 'I'm going to let it go', like I am going to be happy.
maybe this song really speaks how i feel... i was kind of like on "lithium" for the past 3 years? i didn't dare to hold happiness in my hands. i felt numb towards most events that should have evoked some sort of emotions in me. even things that made me cry nonstop. things didn't hurt that much until i started facing them again. it's like i'm letting my reliance on my lithium go... and it still hurts now.
will i be able to let it go? and dare to fight for my own happiness?
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