Of Smiles and Sunshine

the gip interview yesterday turned out fine... and much better than i thought.... perhaps lol! i ended up chatting with the professors... despite being left totally in shock after the first question they asked me... which is "what is GIP in chinese"? i stunned and actually replied... i have never heard of such a thing! i think i must have sounded super dumb in front of my profs in retrospect... well... hope i will get the chance to go china... and then i can try to apply for the scholarship...

actually quite excited by the idea of living alone in a foreign country for 6 months... i wanna learn to be more independent ^^ like how to handle my own laundry, cooking... *i hope the food i cook will be edible haha~*

and my professors actually told me off because i felt i didn't have much chance when applying for the exchange... they say my gpa is way above average when in my opinion i think it's not that good... ok i think pple will slap me for that statement above, but that's how i really feel haha~ so yeaps they said the locals strangely have very low confidence... which is very true at least in my case haha~ afraid of being out shined by the foreign students, being too humble until it brings the negative effect of having low self-esteem... we seal off our opportunities which are actually available for us to grasp... after hearing them say this i sort of got encouraged by what they said... and gained a little more confidence in my abilities lol~

and the good luck continued today... and really... i guess it's really all in the mind. i was very weary and dreaded doing homework... but yesterday for the first time i sat down at home and read my lecture notes... and i did 2 tutorials today.... a slight sense of achievement though the 2 tutorials themselves took like... 2+ hrs to complete *excluding time to revise notes* i'm surprised i can sit still and even finish 1 tutorial in a go haha~

and the prof. comm. lessons which i dread so much? the tutor still looks as stern as ever... and i totally panicked when i realised i totally forgot that i have that tutorial today and i forgot to bring the textbook.... thanks shian for lending me her textbook! actually i dun really dare to ask for favors from others... so thanks so much for lending me the textbook without even asking for the reason behind it! it sort of became a morale boost to make me feel less intimidated in the class full of year 4s... and plus! during lunch i met shianchi and yinyin's friends who went on exchange to seattle together... and guess wad? one of them turned out to be my tutorial mate for prof comm! shianchi is my lucky star ^^

i hope everyday can be as cheerful as today...

but for now... let me hit my pillow...