14th feb coming soon... let there be love in the air...

yes! 14th of feburary is just around the corner... so, let there be love in the air *around this entry, i mean...*

speaking about this, a lot of things were running through my mind for the past few weeks... months maybe... so many things i wanted to talk about, like how incredibly busy i am until my friends like pansy complain she always cannot find me *wahaha...* yeah, so sorry, no time for love as well...

but here i am talking about love... let's see... just wanted to post two songs on this entry today... a song which i used to love when i was in secondary school... and another that was playing on the radio quite frequently these days...














Once Upon A December

Dancing bears,
Painted wings,
Things I almost remember,
And a song someone sings
Once upon a December.

Someone holds me safe and warm.
Horses prance through a silver storm.
Figures dancing gracefully
Across my memory...

Far away, long ago,
Glowing dim as an ember,
Things my heart
Used to know,
Things it yearns to remember...

And a song
Someone sings
Once upon a December



that december
is when everything started
and three months
of joy and tears
that night sealed our fate
and our hearts as well




been thinking about the forgotten memory lost in my mind for quite a while... at first it was indifference, then a tinge of happiness, then heartache. i wonder how much more it would last.

the memory i was searching for was not the memory of loving someone, but the memory of being in love with love... the sweet aspects of love, the lovey dovey sweet honey feeling, the one that makes u feel warm inside; the comforting hugs from those who cared; the happiness when someone u like is nice and sweet towards u; the joy knowing that someone accepts u for who u are as a person, an individual, a soul.

yet i actually forgot the bitterness in this candy that tricks innocent n foolish humans from getting themselves hurt over and over again. the endless nights spent crying over spilt milk; over people whom u thought they cared but apparently otherwise; the sourness when seeing someone u have a crush on was closer n nicer to someone else; the cruel words n actions the one u cared most did to u.

people are willing to suffer years of such pain for just one moment of that sweet tenderness from the one they cared.

and i think, why they are so foolish.

and i see those people around me, guys who try to flirt with girls whom they barely know in search of "love". i don't know whether to laugh at their attempts or to applaud them for their... open-ness of being so daring to accept those whose personality was not totally known to them. or perhaps, it's my view of "love" being different from theirs. perhaps i was looking for pure love so pure that it is non-existant in this reality.

and i don't know whether to laugh or not when my girlfriend shian chi tells me that her relatives were so willing to introduce her any guy along the street just because she is still single and available. my stand on love still holds -- 真爱是值得期待的。
but i guess it would never reach my turn to be in love again.
and so, i've thought of the perfect gift for myself on valentine's day... hehex... it shall be... a ring for my left hand... symbolising independence for women of this society... XD my nunnery rawks... XD

and now onto the second song...












我会好好的
王心凌

我会好好的
花还香香的
时间一直去
回忆真美丽

我是想着你
一直想着你
你在我心底
变成了秘密

不要说你爱我 你想我
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我
我知道了会很难受

我要你默默走 不回头
我会清楚明白你要的是什么
无须勉强的安慰我
说奇怪的理由

到现在还是深深的 深深的 爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以
那是我心中的幸福
我知道它苦苦的

要给你远方的祝福
我知道它苦苦的






我发现，我到现在还是深深的爱着你。
不过你放心，我不会给你添任何麻烦，
我只想要从远处望着你，看着你幸福。





and now... an update on my... boring and busy life... cny! first day of cny i fell sick and couldn't eat as much as i wanted... spent the rest of my new year sleeping away, playing game, and occassionally went out to 拜年... but in the end only 4 红包... 2 from my parents 2 from my grandparents... on wed went to see doctor, not for my flu or cough, but for my ingrown nail... had a mini surgery which scared the hell outta me... cos... had to take a jab that was super painful to numb my swollen toe... -_- and now my big toe is all bandaged like some balaku... *dunno how to spell lar... -_-* and i'm totally lagging in tutorials, the holidays were of no help to me in catching up on academic stuff...

upcoming, tml is tuition day, sunday is tuition day, monday school until 7... jap lesson again... makes me stress cos i think i'm not lagging in the homework but the things that we learnt each lesson... each lesson now leaves me more and more blur... cos my mind cannot remember the things that was taught during each lesson... and no time to revise every time after the lesson. tuesday is volleyball day XD... until 9pm... wed is lab day... slack day... then mug homework time... thurs is jap day again, fri is makeup day wif jap and volleyball again... sighz... sat is tuition day again, sun is tuition day again... and the cycle repeats itself...

ok i think that's enough to bore readers off... so tata~ and hope everyone out there had gotten loads of income from this festival... =)

i need rest and a nice tan...