Of Smiles and Sunshine

i'm tireds... i napped half of my afternoon away but still i am tireds...

and there's a lot of things to be done... like to study for quantum physics quiz on mon, jap quiz on thurs... and i am here procrastinating...

there should be no time left to be thinking about strange things... like the stupid horror point-click-game which i challenged my tutorial mates to playing yesterday at around 3+am in the morning... in the end me and shing yeong were the only ones scared outta our wits, while yong quan was making funny commentary... shian chi and nicolas like not scared at all -_-

sighz...

yesterday i wrecked havoc after volleyball training... haha i felt so lousy among those pple there... their spike was so qiang! and when playing the game, they like know how to hit to those pple, form strategies and stuff...

makes me think about a lot of things... like the really graceful movements of volleyball players... i wish i could be half as graceful...

after that, went for supper wif shian chi shing yeong yong quan nicolas... then stayed over at sc's room again... LOL... i can become their legal squatter liao... talked to sc... then bathed and went to yq and nicolas' room to play mahjong... *and i was the crazy za boh who suggested it... -_-'''* then scared myself by challenging them to play the scary game.. -_-''' and then later when everybody buay tahan go back room to zZz i was the only one who couldn't go to sleep... -_-'''

sighz...

i hope i wasn't disturbing anyone last night... or these times... memories go hay-wire at times of stress and when u're tireds...

no need to put on all those pretence... it wouldn't make me feel better... it shouldn't even matter by now... i knew it in the bottom of my heart right at the beginning...

yet somehow, i'm going through everything once again... relieving those moments once again... moments of happiness and bliss, yet, moments of tears and sorrow...

it shouldn't be as painful for u by now... in fact it shouldn't bother you... or so i hope...

time to move on, stop pretending you're sad... cos you aren't.

i'm not sad. neither should u.













i wish i am like a toilet bowl... so that i can flush all the crap in my life into the drain...