sick sick sick.

sick sick sick.

it feels extremely lonely when u're sick.

especially when u no longer have school... and it feels as though no one in the world cares whether u're sick or not.

and u can't go out to bathe under the sun.

it's extremely tiring and exhausting.

slept two full days and it doesn't help.

that's when frustration comes in.

thought about loads of things when i'm drifting in and out of consciousness...

wondered if anyone would remember me if i died. *cos very sick mah.*

first group of pple would probably be my parents bah. my siblings most probably... and a few close friends like pansy... yuchun... maybe pple like junyi and kelvin... hahaz~
would u remember me?
but i guess ultimately that wun matter.. hahaz~

i'm really glad that yesterday when i chatted wif shianchi junyi weixiang weijie they all... they showed concern... =) gave me a bit more strength to fight wif my headache and fever... though this morning when i woke up it got worse... but at least i felt better last night...

even those i'm not close to... sometimes it makes me wonder if they're faking concern... but... at least faking concern is better than showing no concern at all bah.. i guess...

at least it beats pple who are so busy until they dun have time or they forget to show concern to those around them...

it's been these two days which i thought i'll really collapse... i almost did... almost fainted on friday... yesterday on the verge of collapsing... especially when i had tuition and my mum dragged me out to buy groceries wif her. -_- but oh well... i survived... barely.. lolz~

i really wanted to collapse... i mean... wad's the point of holding on when u cannot take it anymore? that's when shianchi called me... though it's cos she wanted to jio me to go class outing wif her, which i can't go cos of my condition... when i told her that i'm super sick... and she was like... "do take care ya?"

and juz as simple as that... a word of concern was enough to pull me from the depths of darkness to juz hang on...

so... no matter how busy u are with your own personal life... juz sparing others a second to show them some concern... it brightens their day and gives them the strength to hang on...

so after two days of sleep plus popping numerous panadols... gushing pails of water and rushing to the toilet many times these four days...

i'm glad to announce.. that i'm still alive and kicking. -_-

finally understand how it felt to be totally exhausted... and how when u're in that state u wouldn't want to talk to anybody from the rest of the world.. and u simply want to stay with your bed and not part with it at all...

before i fell sick... i saw a glimpse of light... but when i fell sick... i was once again engulfed in darkness... but now that my mind has cleared... the darkness remained... and i wonder if i'll see the light again. the light of enlightenment...

but for now... recharging my body shall be the top piriority... XD

*starts eating a pack of chips*