Of Smiles and Sunshine

tonite.. is an extremely reflective night for me...

had OT todae... managed to tom pang ching's car... *brand new white car wif red seats! lolz!* was super duper happy cos i was gossipping wif teena earlier abt trying to get to tom pang his car... and i actually achieved my task! lolz~ his car's darn cool... feels as though i'm sitting in a sports car... nice sound system... hehez~

feel a little bad larz... cos i'm quite mean to him... hahaz~ so maybe cos the sake of him being nice to me todae... i shall be a little nicer towards him... ha~ jokings~ :P

next... after ching dropped me off at jurong east mrt station... made a beeline to find pansy at her cookie shop... helped to arrange some of the cookies for baking... and chatted wif her.. realised how 幸福 i am cos i dun have to worry so much abt uni school fees... haiz~

thinking of my uni application... wondering which uni i should go to next... even up till now... though i thought i've made up my mind... somehow there's something nudging me at the back of my mind... as though as it's asking me to reconsider this whole thing again...

maybe i haven't been too serious abt thinking this whole issue... been trying to follow down the easy path... to follow my parent's wishes... but then... is this wad i really want?

even now... after having so much time to think through... i still dun really have the answer...

someone once said to me... that he's envious that i already know wad i have in mind with regards to my future... now... i actually feel a little 惭愧 cos... hehez... u're wrong abt me... lolz!

feeling slightly lucky now... cos... i managed to tom pang ching's car... *sniggers* plus i dun have to worry as much abt my uni school fees as pansy does... *sighz* and.... maybe.. like wad pansy said... there's no tsunami in singapore.. lolz~















have u ever thought abt... blog ethics? how true are the things u type on ur blog?

y are u even blogging?

issit a channel for u to vent out ur emotions?

or issit juz a channel for u to get some pity from the rest of the world?

how true...or... how much should one believe when they read the things on your blog?

the naive me believed the things pple wrote on the blogs wholesale... and now.. i realised... how terribly gullible i am... hahaz~

i guess... pple have their own freedom... whether they wanna scold the rest of the world how life is so horrible and stuff... and even as readers sometimes u juz feel like telling them to shaddup... but.. oh well... it's still their blog... if u're unhappy u can juz leave their blogs alone.. i guess.. lolz~

oh well.. this reminds me of how i closed my first od... lolz~















uni uni uni... application closes in... say... 4 more days time... and i still haven't paid my $10 bucks to ntu... sians... -_- there goes my ten bucks... of hard earned money... =X *well... not exactly mine... cos it's my dad writing the cheque.. but still... can still feel the pain.. lolz~*

i think i've said this b4... ever since i've started work... i've come to realise how hard it is to earn money... and... i'm starting to appreciate the little wealth i have now.. hahaz~

finally truly understand the importance to saving up le... actually... now i'm a little scared that i dun have enuff money to support my own living expenditure... cos i know that i'm in no position to pay for my full uni fees... so the most i can do is to use my own money to survive out there... now earning abt 1000+ monthly bah... but somehow it seems like the agent cheated me on my $$... *sobz~* but aniwae... some money is better than no money.. hahaz... so i better not complain b4 pple like pansy... weijie.... and the rest of the army guys start attacking me wif stones.. grenades... wadeva... hahaz~
















i wonder wad holds in store for me tml... tuition again wif my little devil *winkz to sheila* more stock taking... more blue blacks on my knees blah blah blah... paper cuts on my hand... *gosh.. i sound like i'm torturing myself rather than working.. lolz!* oh well... let's juz hope that everything will be well... =) and pray that maybe ching will be nice enuff to tom pang me again... lolz!