lemme wake up from this horrible dream...

todae is simply a horrible dae ar... think i screwed up loads of stuff....

haiz.. pw todae again... really wanna kill my brother... (the one in sec one, not weixiang...) he deleted my pw slides without asking me, and tt's the only copy i had... wah.. the moment i think of it, my headache comes back at full blast.... and he din even bothered to apologise lohz... haiz.. the more i think of it the more i wanna kill him...

he really reminds me of this person in my klass whom i dun like and both came from tchs... the thought of it makes me sick... my brother and yh.. becoming alike... it's like the two of them came out from the same mould... sickening...

haiz.. becoz of my brother's stupid action.. i got so scared and stressed abt pw.... haiz... went to school... saw my grp members there.. dunno how to face them ar.... i feel like i'm responsible ar.. den becoz of the deleted file, our grp had to work on the slides extra hard....

most of our klassmates are working in the com lab wif us to finish up our op for pw... den they were all waiting for us to go for lunch.... but.... juz as we were going to burn our file into the cd... guess wad? the com hang..... wah.. our files kanna deleted.. cos tt's how the coms in the lab work.. once it reboots, any files tt are not the original files which we found in the com would b deleted... wah... and it's all my fault.. cos i was too impatient... i knew tt the com was abt to hang... so i pressed ctrl + alt + del... din noe tt the files would be gone if i did tt.. sighz...

haiz.. i'm really thankful towards my grp members... weixiang and zhanxin... for being so understanding... haiz... i really feel like i did them a disservice.. always puting our grp into jeopady... (not sure abt spelling.. hahas...) haiz... yet they are still so nice to me... really touched... *sobz*

finally finished wif pw... went on to attend my erhu lesson.. things were as bad as always.. i couldn't memorise the scores for the song han gong qiu yue... sighz... really sad todae.. some more got a bad headache.. oso dunno why... maybe stressed ar... haiz...

juz feel like i'm living in this dream.. maybe the after effects from watching the matrix? hahas... if i'm really living a dream for this dae, i wanna wake up.... haiz...