Of Smiles and Sunshine

孤单 是一个人的狂欢
狂欢 是一群人的孤单












i thought i had conquered it for a long time... never did i expect to come face to face with it again. face to face with my best friend again. what irony...

i really enjoy the company i get here... it's really fun cam-whoring during outings, going out to shop, buy groceries n stuff... it's great to have people whom i can relate to and understand pretty well... and to be crazy with... like doing all those crazy singing screaming jumping and dancing in ktvs... but...

i'm afraid of getting too attached to others... i'm afraid of becoming scared of being lonely again... once i have gotten so used to others around me, when i get back to my previous lifestyle of solitude (probably) i wouldn't be able to stand or tolerate the loneliness left behind...

i wonder what made me know how feeling lonely is like again...

and i wonder... if others feel the same way as i do...