it's a happy day for me! after such a long wait i finally finalised my time table and finally officially started my first jap elective lesson! i felt super excited n happy... hehex~ first time attend jap class... the teacher is nice... then lucky nicolas same class as me... initially i tot i couldn't get my elective... next i got it... then nicolas tot he din get and later he got it too! haha such a happy day, in my sister's terms...
yeah i felt happy this whole afternoon, until i got home. and somehow that euphoria simply faded away. ok spare me my english... language isn't really my cup of tea... somehow now late at night juz feeling a little... down? not exactly down as in depressed, just that... who the heck am i? what am i doing now?
yeah i know i'm studying for my degree, i'm sitting in front of my laptop trying to type some of my thoughts which i can't even figure out wad i'm thinking... perhaps i'm tireds... tml lesson at 930am... last two days had lesson at 830 and i seriously buay tahan... imagine.. this week only lectures no tutorials... i can't imagine the upcoming weeks... and stupid me went to take 2 electives? wth was i thinking this afternoon... and i had this sudden boost in confidence that i can handle 2 electives... now come to think of it that's stupid and dangerous... who knows whether it'll pull down my grades in the end -_-
and... maybe i am too... results conscious? it feels weirds... when everybody else comes and ask u abt ur results and u truthfully tell them ur grades and they start saying things like... godlike... wickedly sick... stuff like that... i know they're joking... but somehow it feels weirds to be a little different from them... sometimes i had this strange thought that maybe i should lie abt my grades just to fit in... somehow i feel they are ard me cos of my grades and i'll help them wif their work... besides that, in school i'm a totally practical n bimboistic girl who will seize all available time to mug tutorials even in the first week of lesson... which is deemed as a study freak. ok i'm freakish bah... sighz... i guess i'm getting more and more incoherent... =X
i guess it's juz cos i'm starting to feel tireds... so much for thinking late into the night...
and yes! i think i haven't played dota in a long time! today tried playing a random hero and i ended up being the feeder in the team... feel so paiseh =X maybe i should train more before i play wif outside pros... randy muz faster come back n train wif me! lolz~
that's all for tonites... shall get some sleep before i cannot wake up tml morning for school.. =X
*on a side note, had a pleasant chat wif pansy n sheila juz now... had a hilarious conversation! and pansy u watch out. i'm going to get the lame queen of the week from u next week. just u wait. :P*
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