Of Smiles and Sunshine

if only i have not made the choice to go somewhere else...

if only i had not met u.

i'd rather have continued to stay where i was...

and need not undergo such joy and pain of knowing u.

i'll probably still be stumbling around, just like myself.

and would not daze off in the middle of huge exciting conversations.

i would have been much happier...

though i admit it really made my heart warm when i see you

i would probably be chatting with huge groups of friends...

and would not be crying late in the night

i might be smiling more...

but can't help to look to see if ur smiling with me

pple might be happier without me around...

and you probably wouldn't have those false smiles pasted on your face everytime you meet our friends

i wish there was never me...

and i wished i could still remember the wonderful memories i had with you

but time passes and i am beginning to forget...

all your smiles, the little things you did that made me happy

the reason for me to be happy...


is because you are happy

i am happy now. i really am.

but are you? if you are then everything's worth it.

i wish others aren't so nice to me.

i'm not worth it.

i wish i wouldn't bring trouble to those around me.

i wish i wouldn't make you upset.

in the end i always did.

in the end, i realised we're not in each others' future.

and so... maybe... it's better off without me.

wishing all the best to you

wishing all the best to everyone out there...