reflections for the week...

after an extremely eventful week... i've realised that...

i dun wanna get angry again....

ask kelvin... he had a taste of my temper *which isn't good at all... =X*

and once i'm angry... i can no longer control myself using logic... and i'll start to get extremely irrational...

and once that happens... i can no longer be the gentle person i am.... *or so i hope*

so... i dun wanna turn into the other "me".... not again, as far as possible.. =X













and... i wanna tell u... sorry that i keep questioning u... it's cos of my... fear... =X *wonder if u'll ever read this... hahahaz~* when i'm afraid.... my emotions take over me and i no longer become rational juz as above... and so.... i start to question.... i know that no one likes to be questioned *wif the probable exception of teachers bah*.... but... when that happens the logical and considerate side of me juz evaporates away...

wait. wad considerate side of me.. =X













aniwae... guess wad? i'm eating chips now... hahahahaz.. and my throat hasn't really fully recovered yet... todae finally my voice is slightly back.. can start to sing song again without going off key so much.... hahahaz... still coughing though.... :P but... who cares... :P

thinking abt the past again... munching the hot and spicy fried sotong... *which makes me wana gulp down loads of water... cos so hot!!!* reading naruto manga now... now got new chapter!!! makes me feel so so so happy.... XD

yet... now that i've finished reading... a new feeling of.. siandedness falls over me... =X

feeling tireds.... of all those things happening to me this past week... and no idea of whether it's going to continue the coming week...

waiting for something else to happen? i dunno... but... i dare not presume any more... cos... when u start to presume, the higher your hopes get... and.. the greater ur fall will be when u realised that u're simply assuming too much...

and once again... that's y i'll question... so that... i am sure... that i'm not presuming... and to make myself know wad reality actually is... before i start to think too much... start to be too confident... until... once i'm on cloud nine, but i have to get down... i'll have to make a heavy fall...

so... it's all an effort to protect myself bah...

though that's really.. selfish? of me... =X

once again... i shall presume that u wun see all these here...

the upcoming week would be another tiring and tedious one... dunno whether i can survive it again in one piece... but i guess... i have no choice but to face it like a wo-man... =X