Of Smiles and Sunshine

after all the ranting, be it here, to my parents, or within my mind... all that's left behind is sorrow...

no thoughts now... almost nothing in my mind..

except somewhere deep within.... all the past events had been flashing back every now and then...

enough.. i told myself... stop all those... flashbacks...

so many ifs.... if i had not done this.... maybe things would have turned out better... no one would have to suffer... maybe.. everybody would be happier...

we could have stayed where we were...

and... maybe we can be spared from... all those things which happened.

i'm sorry...











but...

the moment i thought about the things which happened once again...

the moments which brought warmth to my heart... and yours too i hope...

i realised that...

even if it might be better that these things have never happened...

i can't bear to go back to square one...