... sighz....

really sad todae.. haiz..
sometimes really wonder... how can i be so stupid? and so blur? i'm so blur until even i can't stand it myself...
todae.. did pw... dunno.. everyone think i'm the one who organised this meeting.. like i'm the secretary liddat.. supposed to order pple around liddat.. but.. dunno lehz... i juz feel i'm not the type of person who can lead... dunno.. i felt tt i'm better as a leader when i was still in sec school than now... y? i seemed to have forgotten the leader in me...
i feel tt everybody has been very tolerant towards me, no matter how lousy i am.. i'm nobody... always making trouble for others.. hahas.... always slow in catching stuff... last to understand jokes... late coming number 1... have such poor grades and is so lazy... i have so many bad points until i dun even know the whole list... haiz...
weixiang is so nice to me todae... after pw meeting at his house todae... (he pon school todae.. hahas... we had to meet him after he played LAN wif jon...) i practised erhu in his room... wif sheila and zhanxin... haiz... din really practise in detail.. played really lousy there... den the three of them were playing dai di.. hahas.. :P in the end.. almost late for lesson... weixiang sent us to the bus stop... and gave me directions to my teacher's house.. but guess wad?
i lost count of the no of busstops to alight at at around the 4th bus stop... only 7 bus stops to alight lehz.. still can lose count.. wah.. sotong jiu shi sotong.. haiz... never mind... i hailed a taxi.. and had a communication breakdown wif the driver.. wanted to go serangoon ave 3, the driver asked me whether i wanted to go serangoon or serangoon north.. but i din understand... hahaz... really cmi ar..
went for lesson... got "scolded" by xls... cos me and sujuan din really practise throughout the week since end of promos.. haiz... feel like crying... cos... i really din wanna be so lousy... wanted to play better... but i myself... oso very lazy.. deserve it ar... haiz...