Of Smiles and Sunshine

life sux... and my actions are not making life much better...













sometimes, i wish i was the old me... the withdrawn, slightly introverted, more modest me... and to be someone more sensitive. i hate the times when the things popping out of my mouth these days puts other people down indirectly. what has gotten into me? where did the modesty go to?

other times, i just wish i wasn't me at all. so that i didn't have to know of how others would have felt because i felt the same way in the past. and this becomes unbearable for me to do the things that had once happened to me. but i wonder if it'll hurt others more in the future...

i wish life is simpler... but obviously, life is not as simple as what you think.

i guess even the sundoll keychain charm wouldn't work now...













on a side note, chuangyi manga sale at bookfest 2006 is coming soon! i'm going to save up a little bit of money to get more manga!!! muahahaa.... ok that's one thing to look forward to... despite all the upcoming exams in almost a month's time... which i haven't started revising yet! omg i sound like a nerdy freak... lolx~ and i've signed up for volleyball twice a week starting next week, plus i've gotta find time to play ffx! ahh!!! god pls give me more time! *though the motivations behind this is utterly morally questionable... lolx~*

i wanna eat japanese buffet! a few days ago... i had a dream of a delicious spread of japanese food in front of me... and just before i was going to "test" the food... i woke up. -_- oh man! i really wished i didn't have to wake up then... =( oh well... hope that my "dream" will turn into reality soon...

and i wanna go japan soon! just asked sundoll guy(cos his car got this cute sundoll... lolx! same as my sundoll keychain...) for his opinion on where to go in japan... then he suggest that should go in june... cos then we can see sakura blooming! but weixiang says december... haiz... winter... should be quite cold... =S but i don't mind the snow... since i've never seen real snow in my whole life before! oh man i think i sound super swaku...

first things first though, will be to go manga fest! next would be to start studying for the semester exams... and also to try and complete the ps2 game at the same time... must improve my jap! sighz... i'll have a super long way to go, i guess... =S

and yes, sorry that i have sorta broken my "promise" to post something of substance... as most of u guys can observe, my posts are getting crappier n crappier... =X oh well hang in there! it's coming soon! lolz... *if there's anyone reading my blog, that is... =(*