Of Smiles and Sunshine

i guess... pple are all like that...

only remembering the things that are important to them, remembering those that interests them, while forgetting those "insignificant" in their eyes...

i guess it's juz human nature...
眼泪曾为一个人而流
只是那个人已不在
现在雨水代替眼泪
泪水也就不再流

但是最后才发现 原来他活在心中
不论走到哪里 不自觉地就会想起
一切关于你的事

再也不需要你 这不是欺骗自己
以前那些时光 就留作回忆
再也不需要你 我只要找回自己
美好的不好的 都成为过去
i'm watching this new anime called 灼眼のシャナ, translated to english called blazing-eye Shana (ok my translation sux wahahaha~) juz watched the first episode... quite an intruiging series for me... and juz one episode i'm hooked...

it talks about this guy, called yuuji sakai 坂井 悠二... who was just a normal guy leading a boring school life... was just walking down the streets one day after a normal school day when he notices a seal of some sort unrevealing itself on the ground beneath his feet, and time stopped suddenly and this huge monster appeared, sucking the existence out of all the people on the street, including one of yuuji's classmates, hanai yukari... only yuuji and the monster were the people moving then... and yuuji was shocked at the entire scene... the monster soon realised that unlike the others, yuuji could move and concluded he's a mistes, and is a unique one... and tried to eat yuuji up. at this moment, a girl with fire-red hair and eyes appeared, and saved yuuji in the nick of time... but before she manage to defeat the monster, yuuji was shocked at how she was going to kill n stood between the monster who had transformed into a woman, and the monster took advantage to stick her hand into yuuji's body to look for the hidden item in yuuji that makes him unique... the girl simply used her long sword n cut through yuuji n the monster...

yuuji thought he would be dead due to blood loss but surprisingly he wasn't bleeding at all... he screams at the girl to call an ambulance... but the girl calmly went up to him and simply put the cut half of his arm together with the rest of the body, and his whole body is back in place...

then the girl returned the whole street to normal by replacing the people who's existence had already been eaten by the monster with torches... everything started moving again... yuuji saw his classmate infront of him walk off with lifeless eyes, and she wouldn't answer him when he calls her... and no one on the street seemed to notice wad had happened... yuuji then chased after the girl with red hair, only to find that her hair is now black...

then the girl reveals to him that he wasn't even human, he was just an object, called a torch, that was put in place of an existence that had been eaten by such monsters they encountered just now... and these torches are there to absorb the impact due to the sudden disappearence of an existence... and so... the real sakai yuuji was dead... the person that had been cut was only a reminder of yuuji's existence and would soon disappear... and all those around him would not have noticed that he was even there before...
how i wish i'm dead just like he is.












this story really get me to start thinking about things in life... the concept of how u might not really be who u r now is really an intriguing one lolx... it makes me wanna know more... and watch more... and of course... the girl with blazing eyes totally rawks! XD she totally kicks butt... XD can't wait for the next episodes to come out... it's so irritating that the american companies have to liscense this anime series the moment it came out -_- siandeds... but so far it has juz started airing in japan a few weeks ago... and it's quite like bleach except i guess shana(the girl with red eyes n hair) is so much more hot! lolz.... but of course ichigo's the best... XD

woah... i had the thought of turning my blog into an anime blog... but looking at how i'm struggling with giving a summary of an anime episode *okies my summary skills sux* i think i can totally forget about it wahahaha~ and besides... i guess i don't have that much patience either... lolz... wow i took 1.5 hours to type this whole thing! *cos i was multitasking - eating dinner watching tv, rewatching 灼眼のシャナ episode 1 to write the summary* all in all... i shouldn't be spending time here when i only have 11 days left for exams!!! and i haven't started studying yet!!! jialats... no mood to study somemore... uninstalled dota but anime's driving me crazy and i'm not going to delete it in anyway... =(

somebody help me!!!