Of Smiles and Sunshine

forever like that
nothing ever changes
it's just him
or maybe it was me
being too noisy
as usual
just like that
we're always like that
nothing more, nothing less
moving forward brings pain
stepping back brings sorrow
frozen in the stagnant world
staring at how the sun rises and sets each day
looking at how places age with time
unmoving, unfeeling
unable to do a thing

u're right
i can't forget
those happy and sad memories
what about u
perhaps we're both the same
limiting ourselves to make ourselves feel better
telling ourselves we're trying to spare others of pain
but in actual fact denying how we're afraid to be hurt again
and so we stay stuck up in our facades
building the wall around us
on one hand hoping someone would be able to break through
on the other hand constantly shutting those who come close

loneliness shouldn't be a reason why people are together
love shouldn't arise from trial and error of partners
too many sad endings too little smiles
how many relationships actually survive the trial of time?
i'm sick of hearing sad stories
we want more happy endings
just like those soap operas
where all couples live happily ever after
where all tears cease to flow
where all rainy days end with a huge rainbow across the sky

i shouldn't have raised my voice
it wasn't your fault
i just couldn't let go
the pain's too great
but that's not an excuse
it's not justified
i must have hurt u quite a bit
i just couldn't hold my temper
pls forgive me my dear friend