indifference vs intimacy

at times, i'm bursting mad that i start to fire my gatling gun non-stop.
at times, i'm so happily immersed in my tiny little world.
at times, i feel so in love and so loved by you.
at times, i'm just so insensitive and say things that disappoint you.



sometimes i wonder. why should i even care? i mean, it's totally none of my concern how wishy washy other pple can be... but the moment i see one making a decision, and then hesitating, or even being totally clueless when trying to lead a team... it just makes me want to explode. i know it's totally none of my business but yet i still care.

i wish i was back in my little invisible glass container. and watch all these things pass by me.



yet. i wish i could be more sensitive to your needs. and have a better memory to keep all the things you've told me in my brain. so that i wouldn't forget a single detail when conversing with you. so that you wouldn't be disappointed with me when you realize i've forgotten...

happy 13th month. ^^