Sometimes i wonder... whether i'm a fishmonger by nature. i can't help but to feel selfish in most occasions that occur when i'm together with my housemates... am i just thinking too much? i feel that we 包容 each other alot... but more of them 包容ing me... and it doesn't feel good to me, cos i'm the kind of person who doesn't like to be in debt to others... not to say that being considerate to others will make that person in debt to you... just that maybe... i don't like to be usually on the receiving end bah... i want to contribute too?
but then again there's the issue of... what if i contribute too much? when someone contributes too much as compared to others... there's the danger of others making use of you... i can't tell whether i'm in this potential danger with my current clique yet... but i can't help but to... be cautious? too many past experience liaos... i couldn't say i enjoy on the giving end most of the time...
so i suppose, as a libra-ian... i'll have to somehow strike a balance between giving and receiving... i feel in debt to my housemates and my friends in shanghai... they really help me a lot, but i don't know whether i'm helping them enough. and i don't know how i can help them... with the little common sense and knowledge i have... and i think i have a really bad habit of spacing out when i'm together with the clique... or rather i might just be too quiet in their clique i suppose... maybe when i'm in huge groups that are close to each other i tend to be more quiet... and let them interact themselves... i don't like to fight for the chance to talk i suppose... *opps trying to find excuse for myself again hahaha*
i'm starting work tml! excited and nervous... and the weather's going to be cold tml too! 2-5 degrees not taking into the wind factor... once there's wind then gone case liaos, most likely below 0 degrees le... today it snowed a little... i hope and hope not it snow... hope cos i have never been to a country that snowed in my life before! hope not cos... it'll be damn cold and i don't know if i'm able to take it! and then... i don't know why... it seems like my fellow ntu collegues are... rather unfriendly? or maybe i was unfriendly to them first... i dunno... it's like we never contact each other to like go to work together or something... but i hope tomorrow when i meet them *i hope*... we can probably mix around and get each others contacts n things like that...
i went shopping today! went to 七浦路 again... i bought 2 leg warmers, a pair of leather gloves, and a long white woolen coat... i hope these can help me fight the cold better! and i'm broke! TTnTT i spent like almost 300rmb just today... *inclusive of meals and other miscellaneous stuff* haiz i must end my princess lifestyle and start my budget life! eat maggie noodles every night! lol i'm joking... the roadside stalls near my apartment sell really cheap food too... probably about the same price as cooking maggie mee haha! so that can be an alternative for my dinner =)
today i learnt how to iron jeans! thanks to kian tong who taught me how... though the 徒弟 abit cannot make it... but at least it doesn't look as crumpled as before... i just pray that no one will stare at my butt area when i wear that pair of jeans cos it's the part i don't know how to iron hahaha~ so that side is crumpled XD
and i washed like... 8 pieces of clothes today! hand wash somemore! sighz now i understand my mum's pain whenever we keep throwing in our jeans to the washing basket when we wear for like 1-2 days only... and i should have brought more clothes that doesn't require handwashing! sighz~
overall these few days had been fun! always going out... i just went for the best steamboat in shanghai plus overnight ktv on friday... for 120rmb = 20+sgd! the food at the steamboat place was not bad... service ok... we had a room to ourselves that night! then i learnt how to suck the bone marrow from the pig bones cos we ordered pig bone soup as our steamboat's soup base =) there's a video taken by my friend's camera but i don't have it with me hahaha~ then ktv was... haha... everybody else very onz when we started at 12midnight... i chui at ard 2am... then when i more alert at around 4... everybody else was asleep by 430pm except me and my 2 other housemates... the ktv room there is like singapore kbox! just that they have big lcd screens! and it seems like singing ktv is more of a family and everybody thing in china as compared to a youngsters-only thing in singapore... which is good imo... cos i love singing and i think everyone should have the chance to sing in ktv too! or rather the environment to sort of like encourage pple not to be shy and just sing in their shower rooms... haha!
alrighty... 10:34pm liaos... time to hit the bed... wish me luck for tml!
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