i had a dream last night.

i dreamt i was loved by a prince and a beast.

at the same time i fell in love with an ordinary man along the street who went away just after i knew him.

the prince was like all clique stories, princely. however he was extremely bad-tempered, and has no respect for others especially girls. and he will not hesitate to hit girls either.

the beast though was the king of all monsters and animals, even though he was ugly, and whenever he tried to get close to me, i'll get into a fit, but he was kind and considerate and keeps his distance so that i will not get into fits.

however the man i loved, whom i didn't even know the name, had left for a remote country overseas just when i started liking him.

me and my friends went to visit a fortune teller. i had a wish hidden deep in my heart, i wished that man would return to me.

the fortune teller said that my wish is hard to fulfill, but there is hope for it.

which i thought was all a lie.













if all these happened in real life, who would you choose in the end? the prince in other people's eyes who was violent? or the beast that was gentle? or would it be your love that is totally out of reach of your hands?













i would just stay at where i am and choose neither.

Goodbye my love
s.h.e forever

冷飕飕的风拼命塞满 遗失了你的眼眶
宇宙无声剧烈的摇晃 震碎了我的心房

谁按掉这世界的开关 没有颜色没有光
你的背影变成一面墙 撑住幸福的眺望

Goodbye my love, goodbye! 珍重再见了我的爱
以后没有我在 也要快乐起来

不确定我是否有力量 度过这一段黑暗
但你一定别像我一样 对爱还是要渴望

Goodbye my love, goodbye! 不要枉废了这段爱
我唯一的期待 是你灿烂盛开

生命既不让我拥有你 会有更好的给你

Goodbye my love, goodbye! 前面是汹涌的人海
如果应付得来 请记住我的爱

天天都有梦。梦里的事物都如此逼真，已分不清哪些是梦，哪些才是现实。

人心又是如此三心二意，开始再怎么坚持，遇到新事物与时间的磋磨，当时的坚持都会化为乌有。

那么，“天长地久”应该不会在现实生活中存在。

这样的世界，总让我觉得，不如活在梦里好了。或许这样可以避免对现实的残酷感到灰心。

tell me i'm dumb.

i've always known that i'm really bad at time management, and i really don't have a good sense of time. but how blur can i get?!!!

actually i'm a little frustrated with my holidays now... i wanna go back to school asap so that i wouldn't lie around doing nothing except to watch anime play games n piss my mum off... i really wanted to start studying or do something more productive...

and i though my school holidays would end on 24 july... which is next week.

the realisation only struck me this morning at 1am.

school only starts on 7 august.

AND THAT'S A FREAKING 3 WEEKS AWAY INSTEAD OF LESS THAN 1 WEEK AWAY!!!

urrrragh! *starts fumbling with hair frantically*

how dumb can i get?! -_-

but in the meantime, i'm kept busy with my anime blog... do go check out, tag and leave comments... actually i'll prefer comments... they'll last for eternity as long as my blog is there... haha! there's so many anime i'm watching currently that i don't even have the time and effort to blog everything i watch! but if i blog my entire day away it seems like i'm neglecting other stuff... like cleaning up my room... *which i had postponed infinitely till further notice...*

and i need to finish ffx-2!!!kh2... "completed"... i skipped the quests part for kh2... fought the final boss just to see the perfect ending... and guess what?! my disc jammed when i was watching the final cg movie. drats it. -_- if i had known it, i wouldn't have restarted my entire game just to watch the movie... i would have gone to youtube to look at the ending and not waste my precious time replaying everything. -_-''' now i'm stuck at the boring quests part of ffx-2... before fighting the final boss... if the disc jams anytime now i'll really go "RARRR!" on the ps2... grrrr~

yeap so that's an update on my boring life. nothing much to talk about anyway, i'm staying at home as much as i can... becoming a hermit, just like my assassin's third class job in maple. opps what am i talking about? -_- and i think the rainy season is back again... makes me not want to wake up every morning... makes me feel like skipping work... -_- and is there a way to lose weight without doing much exercise, not skipping meals and not stopping myself from eating the things i like? LOL~ i guess i'm just dreaming in my little own world. -_-

假期三个月，我的生活似乎变得颓废。

并不是因为闲得发慌，天天都有很多东西等着我去做，甚至感到时间不够。目标也不是没有，每天的目标就是要完成那天该做的事。如果那天在打工，目标就是能尽早收工回家。*哈哈那多像我的作风~*

只是。。。

长远的未来，对我来说似乎还是个未知数。

学校假期即将结束，假期前为自己设下的目标似乎都没达到；例如事先读好日文，天天打工赚外块--这样就不必跟父母拿零用钱。。。这些所谓的“目标”并没有 达到。目前我的工作薪水不高，一个星期工作不到五天，不过都感觉非常疲惫。终于明白，赚钱不容易。打工后，不是看漫画，看书，就是看动画片，总是轮不到读 日文。。。

总觉得，普通人的假期应该是常常出门，与朋友相聚玩乐的时光。可是，不大善于社交的我却偏爱待在家里，做些无聊的事情。。。或许是对世界感到厌倦，有些时 候早上一睁开眼就有种“啊啊，我还活在这个世上啊~”的感觉。说起来好像有点可笑，好像是在等死这样。不知道是因为我最近所阅读的《灼眼的夏娜》有关，还 是自己悲观到极限。

对世界一点期望也没有。正确的来说，是不要对这世界报有任何期望。不想被世间琐事所困扰，不愿受到伤害。这就是人们所谓的“达到最高境界”吗？

目前的我对现状没有任何不满，在朋友眼里看起来是相当幸福的。或许这真是如此，或许只是个假象。而我不想再想太多，只希望这种平平淡淡的生活不受干扰，继续活在自己的世界里。。。

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过敏
杨丞琳

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸 怕别人看见
我敏感的神经线
一点一点 没知觉

泛红双眼不成眠 它跟着我一整夜
麻痹的脸 特效药 也无解

才发现 我正搁浅在爱情过敏的季节
oh过敏源 是对你的思念

我想我才了解
我正停格在爱情过敏的季节
季节没改变 是想念 没断线

我想我才发现
感情尘蹒已布满了我的世界
oh过敏源 是为你流的泪
我想我才了解
就算用尽了力气也未必如愿
季节没改变是眼泪弄湿脸

季节一直变
但我的心没有变

你消失的一百天
我没了笑脸没知觉

aozoranoshita...

yes! my anime blog is finally up and running... still need to tweak with the scripts here and there... especially wrt to the categories... it's driving me mad... but still i suppose it's not bad a start...

here's the url:

～青空の下～ anime blog

hope u guys like it... the template is really simple cos i really have no idea how the script works for blogsome... haha~

i'll still be back to post here once in a while... but since now i have to spend more time online, i suppose i should be able to blog more here as well... oh well... haha~

till then... =)

geez...

*note: i gave up early this morning trying to post here, reposting this saved post*

hmmms... i don't know what's wrong with my browser or blogger... but apparently i can't post my entry here... so i'm retyping this in hope that i get to publish this...

at 2:53am in the morning i'm still awake... cos i'm vexing over whether to start an anime blog or not. and this would definitely take a lot of time out of me... need to come up with new design, and figure out how to organise entries... i've been refering to other pple's anime blogs as a guide, but somehow i'm not exactly satisfied with the functions blogger offer...

however i hope that even if i eventually do start on an anime blog, i will not let this place rot and disintegrate...

i was quite surprised when naveen smsed me a few days ago regarding my blog entry on losing my drive to blog... i guess he regained his motivation to blog after losing it to ns... maybe that's y he tried to talk to me about it, but all the free time i had was spent on anime manga games going out and not blogging... so it's a matter of whether i had the intention or not. but i don't. and i'm not the only one who had lost the drive to blog.. weijie, nico n jon apparently have left their blogs to the spiders as well... mine... only a few mushrooms had gathered.... so... hahaha~

anyway, in this unearthly hour, i can only spare such few words to try and wrap up the millions of thoughts i have currently... and with that pls pray hard that i'll wake up for work tml at 12 and not to be clumsy... oyasuminasai~