promise

promise to self:

i will not go out later unless i have done at least half of my audio lab tonight.

S.O.D

I got lost in a maze of a game for 2 hours when I could have gotten out in half an hour with the help of a notebook and pen.

feeling murderous

you DON'T and CAN'T get away with sloppy work.

rawr!

tell me why this is such a pain.

justice

there is no definite right or wrong

it is just difference in our stands and perspectives

hate only arises when something precious to one had been compromised

and once that happens, it is hard to turn back...

i used to think hate is evil and one shouldn't hate at all

however in this grey world there is no definite black or white either

even when our actions hurt others, which i would feel is wrong,

if we are acting according to our principles, then it isn't wrong...?

conflicts are everywhere

we can try minimise conflicts

but undeniably, there are still those which are unavoidable

when our sense of justice tells us to make our stand

no matter how the rest of the world might perceive

no matter the consequences, i will do it

because... this is me.

ramblings

pride vs humility,

what draws the line between?

which is more important as a treasure?

pride or our very own lives?

why is it that sometimes,

pride is worth much more as compared to our lives?

there are just things that outsiders may never understand...

sorry

it was a painful decision.

i will work harder.

Final Fantasy XIII

japanese voiceovers with english/chinese subtitles next week? or english voiceovers in 3 months time...? haiz dilemma dilemma dilemma~~

independence

有些事情还是靠自己比较好。

human

i am just a powerless human.

i can only do one thing at a time.

i can only do things within my power.

some things just can't be forced.

stress

i need to learn how to relax and handle stress in a calmer manner... =X

A Poison Tree

by William Blake

I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe;
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I water'd it in fears,
Night & morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with my smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright;
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine,

And into my garden stole
When the night had veil'd the pole:
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretch'd beneath the tree

right and wrong

if there is no definite right or wrong in this world,

how do we know if the things we've done are right? or wrong?

how do we know if the moral "ruler" we have in us is true?

or is that even important in the first place?

or maybe, right and wrong really doesn't matter

it's more like the action and its consequences

whether the consequences harm others and things like that

but then again... "harming others" is subjective too...

i guess i paint my world relatively black and white

though i'm aware of the existences of the different shades of grey

maybe i just prefer things to stay the way it has been all along...